Beauty.

So this morning I woke up earlier than usual so I decided to get up and yah know put a little more effort into my whole look ahahahaha. Sometimes I try, but I'm not ashamed to throw a few metal toothpicks in my bed hair and call it done! I felt super pretty yesterday and didn't get changed out of my church clothes til like 11 ahahah I even had a suuuuper professional photoshoot with the reflector! But anyways today. I chucked mascara on, re-straightened my hair, threw on my flower head band which I now know how to wear nicely because of Hurutea (she teaches me so much without even realizing she is) then just my red lip gloss but like gently took it off so it just stained my lips and chapstick! Omg I should totes be a beauty guru with that amaze tutorial. I even wore stockings and my mums boots, thanks again ma.

The point of this post is kinda braggy but it's about all the compliments I got today. Today was the best day. All the little girls in the class next to us came and gave me a big hug and were like "ellen you look so pretty, your hair's so soft" then John far he said my hair looked nice and far man everyone was just being so nice! Ahahahaha far this is all so up myself but I'm actually getting to a point! So today I looked different than I usually look, but it's really the way I felt that made the difference I think? Like I felt so pretty yesterday even though Ton said I looked hansim and you honestly do have those days when you're like daaayum girl ahahahah and then there's other days where you actually look alright but feel like the hansimest person in the world. 

It's all about self confidence and how you carry yourself. And it's about how others make you feel, my perfect little school made me feel so good about myself today and I reckon that's such a cool thing that I can go to school and feel that good about myself, where I am and who I'm with. But also lastly, it's coz I look hansim every other day and so it was different and like a nice change and that's what I like, I like that I don't care how I look most of the time and then when I do it's noticed gaaah I dunno but like it's better than being pretty all the time and then you take off your makeup and people are like "are you alright, you look sick" ahahahaha people can either make or break you matey! 

Towards the end of the day I was like far I must look so ugly, mascara smudged, hair thrown up, nude lips ole. But faaaar I was at home in my hoodie and onesies and hurutea came home while she waited for her dad and she said I looked pretty. Far this is such an up myself post, like oooh I looked pretty today, let me tell you all about it in four freaking paraphraphs. But no, surround yourself with people who make you feel good about yourself on the odd occasion. That's all.

I know you wanna see the beauty. Still gotta act like a bush pig when I'm looking like a queen nahahahah joookes.