April favourites.

Percy, aw he's just such a sweet lil cute baby and i love him he's just the sweetest. Playing tag and chasing him around, looking at planes, and throwing him up in the air, him always eating and eating my food aswell, i just love his cuteness.

Ive been craaaaaving slushys like its starting to get really warm and summery and so i just feel like one, then i went to the movies with bonnie and had one but yeah, they're not very like common over here.

My new kimono, i got it at Matalan and its like crochet and long and heavy and its so pretty. I wore it as soon as got it and just love it with everything.

Grey plimsolls, these lil shoes i got for like $4 from Boohoo dot com ahahahah and they're just so easy and coz they were so cheap, and grey and casual and cool ole.

Knowing I'm going home! Yesss I'm going home, I've decided life too short to be unhappy, that I've got my whole life to come back to england, why do i need to be here now, being unhappy, i want to be back being happy with my friends, but I'm nervous that like what if i go home and I'm not happy like its hard but I'm excited to go home and not be miserable and homesick :D

The pink print ohmygosh! This album is good, Nicki Minaj will forever slaaaaay and theres like upbeat rap party songs but then theres Grand Piano which is so nice and aw i just like the songs ahahahahah my inner black girl is coming out and just like embrace the sounds ahahahah what even.

What I miss about home.

I'm homesick. As. And like just missing certain things from home and like random weird things aswell so i just wrote them down, its so pointless and stupid and not even a long list but i just though some of the things i randomly miss are like out of it ahahaha, just another pointless blog post.

Square weetbix
And square teabags!

Radioactive bright orange Fanta hahahah the Fanta here is like normal orange colour but it looks so ugly

The warehouse

Red bands
And calling Jandals, Jandals not Flip Flops

My car and driving!!
Going on like mini road trips on the weekends

River water

Jade talking about sabbath days

Paknsave pizza at the bakery

Sexy Maori boys

That puzzle we have that's got three different sized pieces and it's about the arctic ahahahahha

They way Ton asks me if I wanna watch Greys ahahahahah

Dads chicken!!!
Me Olea and Hurutea sleeping over at each others houses and laughing at THE dumbest stuff ever like but just dying of laughing!
Actually just leaving the house
Just using normal blimmen words! Chips, pants uh i can't think of anything else but like just not having to explain myself ahahahaahahahaha.

Chu get a me a plane ticket home.

March Favourites

Andrew Lowe! He's such a cool youtube, I feel like he's the boy version of Olea like he's just so monotone and doesn't care but then gets excited about things and his sense of humour and so i got to binge watch his videos which I have done that in ages!

My adorable duvet that nana found in the guest room, i loose it so much and its so just simple and chic and classy ahahahahah, it just a single white duvet with black hearts on it. I leave it downstairs for when i watch greys, its so comfy and cozy on the uncommon and uncanny couches ahhahha.

Greys Anatomy. Absolutely obsessed. We have Sky Boxsets so I've been watching at least two or three episodes a day, ten on days I'm not working. I love watching it from the start and them being interns aw it was just so good but its so hard because I'm falling in love with all these characters but i know they're gonna leave. I bawled my eyes out when George died and like aw man i just crack up at them and then cry and get mad and i just love that its on tv and i just go in at night when grandad goes to sleep but i just love it so freaking much!!

Work! Being a freaking waitress, i feel like I'm in a movie and this is what I'm supposed to be doing yah know, like in my life plan this is what i need to do. I love the people i work with, i love having money even though i just spend it shopping online, i love getting attention from customers being like oh where are you from, and just getting the piss taken out of me ole ahahahah.

Orange juice and lemonade, i have a big huge tumbler cup and so i really like drinking a huge as cup when i watch Greys, but its so yuck if nana buys pulpy orange juice.

The last five years, its the stupidest most confusing movie ever, but i bought the soundtrack and I'm obsessed!! Aw i just get them stuck in my head and i just love them, the Ohio one and she's like Richard who was with got uncharacteristically quite and said all things considered i guess you don't have to buy it, so i smiled like mona lisa and i laid my visa dooooown, i just love it. 

Oil pens, don't even look at me if you use normal ball point pens.

Mint chocolate ice cream and salted caramel ice blocks, self explanatory. I love ice cream a lot and those are noice ones.

Figure out what you don't want.

Last year me and Hurutea were having a deep and meaningful and freaking out about life and how we have to make all these big huge decisions that shape the rest of our lives so we googled "how to deal with a quarter life crisis" ahahahaha and it came up with a Buzzfeed article which is obviously my fave ahahahah. The two things that we liked the most were "hang out with people who aren't our age" because everyone our age is in the same boat, freaking out about the big decisions, and then we're just comparing ourselves with everyone else who may have a tiny bit more of their plan figured out ahahahah so if you hang out with older people, they already have everything figured out!! So theyre just dripping with guidance and advice to give. That's perfect for me because I've literally come over here and have no friends at all and just hang out with all my mum and dads friends, and my nana and grandad ahahahaha so I've got more wisdom coming my way then you can dream of! Then the second thing we fell in love with was instead of making this one single big huge decision "figure out what you don't want to do" and I'm absolutely in love with that. So that's what I'm doing over here, figuring out what I don't like or want and it's actually so surprising. Like some of them are big things and some of them are tiny ahahahah but it's all about figuring out who i a and becoming my own person, like coming over here mighta been a mistake but at then end i know that i will have learnt heaps and like had experiences that i wouldn't have had back home yah know? So yeah, i love that so much and my life motto will peobably be "Figure out what you don't want" coz like its so cool coz its allowing yourself to accept all the mistakes you make, just in that one sentence. Like yup i messed up, now i know i can't do that, or don't like this and i dunno i just like it.

February favourites

Bagels, they're cool. They're £1 for four. Cream cheese and ham, people do that right, I did it, it was superb, great.

Plain tortilla chips, I remember at primary school and we could buy these corn chips and I remember the packaging and they were just plain like salty, not ultimate cardiac arrest inducing gross nuclear cheese powder like they are nowadays ahahahhah and I was just superly craving plain tortilla chips so I got some and I ate them. Cool. 

Oooohmygosh we went to sainsburys after I went to the doctor and I grabbed these cookies after feeling them up so much to see if they were soft and they were so so so good, like Subway good! They were just like chocolate chunk but they were super nice! And freaking four cookies for £1!! That's $2!! I went back in to town by myself mainly to buy those ahahahhaha. I like Sainsburys much more than Waitrose I think ahahahhaha.

Annie!! I watched the new Annie from last year and it was good! They coulda got better singers, I didn't think that Cameron Diaz or Rose Byrne were very good at all but Quavenzené is so super cute and adorable!! I like how they revamped the songs but I still like the 1999 version? I dunno there's three and my favourite is the second one ahahahha and I've just been playing the soundtracks non-stop! 

Joe Weller, Oli White, Joe Sugg, and Will Darbyshire in L.A, it was playlist live and I wasn't reeeeelly as excited for it as usual, watching the same vlog from ten different views, but then these four boys stayed on and lived in a house together for like a month now? And I waited everyday for each of their vlogs, they were so funny and I just loved all of them and their "banter" hate that word and that's all I've heard since I got here ahahahahhahahah. 

January Favourites.

Michael Bublé's song Home has been on repeeeeeat and being sung at the top of my lungs. Ahahahahhaha I've only been here a month but that songs just pure brill.

Louisa Wendorf and Devin Dawson's Taylor Swift mash up of Blank Space and Style it is sooooo freaking good like unbelievably good I love it so much, the part where he sings "long hair, slick back, white t-shirt" awww man it's just amazingly perfect and I haven't stopped listening to it, it's just so great, err'body listen tew et!!

Online freaking shopping. All I've been doing since I got here!! All the Christmas and New Years sales without going outside ahahahahahaha I've got so much good stuff I love it so much and because I live in England the shipping isn't even more expensive than the product ahahahahahahahahhaha so lovin life, thanks mum for my Christmas muuuullaaaaa

Tomato sauce, literally have it on every single thing at the mo ahahaha.

Dressing up!! I really like it a lot, making an actual effort to look pretty all the time over here, the only place I ever go is to the supermarket, but Bae might be there sau gotta look hawt. It's winter over here so scarves, beanies, jackets and all that and I just love it!!

Saying "hiya" I dunno why but I just really love that word now!! To everyone.

New Years.

So it's obviously New Years and y'all know what that means!! New Years resolutions!! I have quite a long list of em this year ahahaha and i chucked them all on my insta but I'm gonna put em here so i can elaborate more ahahah.

Smile more. Just simply have a smile on my face all the time. I started doing this last year, like when i caught myself doing nothing or just having a relaxed face, i don't think i have cbf (chronic b*tch face) but its still not a smile, so if i was on a bus or concentrating on my work i'd just try and remember to smile.

Read more. I have so many books but have quite a short attention span. I want to read at least 20 books this year. I think that's pretty reasonable?

Go out more. I live in freaking England. And for the past two weeks all I've seen is the four walls of my bedroom, so I needa make some friends, get my liscense and gtfo ahahhah just go on adventures and say yes to opportunities that come ma waaay!

Dance more. It's a bit hard now in my little temporary room but its made me miss having a speaker and playing my music really loud and just having little dance parties when i can't sleep, i wanna get back into that, just in my undies or my towel or whatever and just dancing.

Give more. I want this to be a very generous year. Giving without wanting to receive anything in return, making people feel good and happy about themselves and the world around them, that there are still good people in the world. "The world is full of nice people, if you can't find one, be one"

Write more. I write a lot, lists, journals, emails, job applications ahahahhaa but I want to write more on here and write more of my life down. I email my mum every single day as like a diary entry, then I copy those emails into blogposts so that i can always go back and see and all that stuff. But on this blog, last year my goal was to write 100 posts in a year and 10 a month and i did a lot of diary entries for that because i was doing fun and exciting things, but since i have my journal blog and i will be out just living life, my goal for this year is simply just 5 posts a month. and i think thats quite reasonable. That's 1 post a week plus my monthly favourites so i think that's good. And by not having an overall total to achieve, i wont fizzle out when i hit that mark like i did last year when i got to 100 posts.

Cook more. I'm basically an adult now but like it's that awkward stage where i'm not an adult ahahaha but i live with my nana and grandad and i make all my own food, i dont eat what they eat, i buy a different set of groceries at the supermarket and lately all thats been consisting of is pizza and chips. So i want to broaden my horizons and actually start cooking instead of taking things from the freezer and putting them in the oven, actually buying ingredients instead of boxes of ready meals ahahahaha so yeah how bout cook at least two meals a week, from actual ingredients. I think thats easy enough to achoeve.

Appreciate more. Mum always says she loves doing things with and for me because I show my emotions, like I think I am quite vocal and honest about how I'm feelings, not as much as others, but better than Ton and Gregor who never say anything ahahahhahahaha. But I want to be much more vocal about appreciating people and the big and little things they do, not just for me but for everyone, just appreciate everything and everyone around me.

Create more. People always tell me I'm a creative person but I don't really believe it because there are people more creative than me, but that's stupid coz there's always someone better, there's only one best and so I should just work on using my creative abilities. So I want to do that. Create beautiful things that are cool ahahahahah.

Love myself more. Everyone is always going on about how we need to love ourselves more, and like how can you expect anyone to love if you don't love yourself, but thats not true, like there are people in your life who will love you no matter what and how you feel, and its difficult to love yourself every second of everyday, but i think it is so important to do so. It's dang hard but it's so doable like its yourself, you're the only person you're with you're whole entire life so if you're in a constant state of putting yourself, its gonna mess you up, like you wouldn't want someone else to say some of the the things you think about yourself so like why do you think them to yourself ahahah does that make sense? Not really, but anyways i wanna work on working on myself, falling in love with my self and being content with who i am, changing the things that are changeable but also accepting unchangeable flaws yah know? So yeah.

Sparkle more. One of my favourite quotes is "She leaves a little sparkle wherever she goes" or "She who leaves a trail of glitter is never forgotten" and idk i just want to leave a good impression and like be remembered as a sparkly person yah know, so i just really love that, I've fallen in love with all things gold and glittery so i just love those quotes and wanna work on leaving a trail of glitter everywhere i go, not literally like Ton said when i read her that quote ahahahaha but i just like it so i wanna do that this year, make an impression.

And just a few things i wanna do less that are self explanatory and don't need big paragraphs ahahahaha.

Stress less.
Judge less.
Care less.
Complain less.

Ahaha i dunno i just wanna have fun and be a good person yah know. Happy New Years y'all. Peace.