Fears.

Guess i just decided to write a list of things i fear, or like am afraid of or yah just don't like?

Caves- haha just realised this last year when we went to this place in Morere and i just completely freaked out coz there was all that rock above my head or something i dunno but i do think its mainly because of the movie 127 hours hahaha

Fires in the night- you know when youre a little kid and you learn so much stuff about what to do in a fire and everything? but i honestly would freak out so much and just be freaking out! i find it so hard to think about just leaving all my stuff to burn in a fire ugh coz im just so superficial and do really love all my stuff! But okay the night time part is because like of what i wear! im in an ugly shirt and mickey mouse boxer shorts and i have to run out into the safety and then all the firemans come and those are the only the clothes you have for however long, i dunno that just freaks me the heck out!

Getting into trouble- I am the most innocent, goody two shoes little person. I hate confrontation, doing things that break the rules, i don't take risks like that! i would honestly break down crying if i did something wrong and i got in trouble from someone! i just hate it so much! haha and because i havent really been in a lot of big trouble, i think that little things are big i guess?? So when i think my  mum gives me a growling but then i tell Olea and Teah and they're like beei thats not even a growling shutup hahah but it was like a kinda big deal to me!

Losing people- last term i lost three people who i was close to in three different ways. And now yes im worried about people leaving my life in any of those ways. hahah seeeeeelf centred but yeah i love everyone in my life and i think threes a good enough number for now definitely.

Photos with celebrities- this is probably the biggest fear that i have! that if the magical day that i meet a celebrity, like any celebrity! and we take a photo together that i will look hansim as! like obviously you wanna treasure that photo forever because its a memory of a momentous day in your life so it would just be the worst thing ever if you looked ugly! i think about this pretty much every single day! and am just realising that it's probably pretty self-centred but i just am legitimately afraid to look ugly in a photo hahaha!

And yeah thats just a few fears i have. So now you know just yeah now you know. Byyyye!