A day at Nuhaka.

Yesterday I had legitimately the best day of this Summer!

On Wednesday I went to Huruteas house, Olea and Natalia came round for a movie night, we finally all got to talk about SMYC! I was messaging Asher all day and we we're talking about Birthdays and he was like oh yeah when's Huruteas birthday? And I was like oh yah it's the 23rd I'm such a good friend! And then when I was telling the girls they were all like naaaaau bei it's the 29th faaar I felt so ugly coz I was bragging that I knew and then nah wrong as ahahahaha! But we just spent the night talking, watching The Notebook Oleas movie scene ahahaha, we played scrabble and it was so funny, no-one knew when their turn was, Hurutea put one word down then gapped it ahahaha, we had maori words and hansim names, moe, storyo, yolo, urleea, nooice. We had heaps of food and it was just a super fun sleepover night but except Olea and Natalia couldn't stay, aaand I didnt really sleep. Hahaha but I'm already like an insomniac, and so Hurutea was asleep and I was just playing cards on my iPod hahah and then I was so not comfy so I slept on the floor haha like fully the floor nothing underneath me, and thats the first time I've ever done that haha!

Saaaau then yesterday morning we had fresh juice yeeh man, Matua Henare and Sol were being idiots as always, making dem jokes and all dat! A branch from the next door neighbors nectarine tree fell on the car so they grabbed all the nectarines, we were tryna make new plans just to get out to Nuhaka but then both the boys decided to come too. Natalia came and we took like 20 minutes to pack the car and get the back chairs down! But finally we were aaoff! We picked up Evonne and all us girls all talked about the clothes we have to return to eachother and the boys were just sitting in the middle ahaha! We went to Pak'n'Save and it was so nice and airconditioned! We were on a mission! Time is money! It was actually so fun, like just that simple little trip to the supermarket but we were just all a bunch of mates and it honestly felt like we were in a movie far it was just fun okaaay!

We travelled like an hour with all the windows down coz it was saaau hawt! We got to the river and had look arooound, up on the bridge and they were like yeh lets jump i was like naaau you have to check the water be careful safety! hahaha always always always gott be safe haaha thats why I'm actually so proud that i did jump coz it was like dangerous hahah! We got all the food out and had lunch, I was messaging the boys tryna sort out where they were and what not and then Huruteas line of the day "Oh maybe they're at the chapel where I said we'd meet them" gaaaaaah faar I love Teah, just not her plan making abilities hahaha! So we drove down to the chapel and the boys were like it obviously makes more sense to play basketball and get super hot and then go for a swim! I was so hot and grumpy and you just don't wanna know me when I'm hot and annoyed! All I wanted to do was go for a swim hahaha I felt so bad fo bringing all dat negative energy in tew da group! Hurutea loves to cuddle me and I just don't in Summer time!! Hahaha but she loves to annoy me so she did it so much! But the boys and Teah were just all playing and stuff just all doing random stuff together haha! Me and Evonne were craaacking up about jandals and stuff! Then outside when we were leaving Kzchian was "talking" to the sheeplahs and it was so funny!

Finally we got to go down to the river! I was in there man! I hate the feeling of sunblock on my skin gaaah! So I went in the water straight away! We waited for the boys to get there and then we jumped off the bridge! I was the first girl I think, and that was the first ever time I've jumped off a bridge and it was honestly saaaau fun! I grazed my leg coz I thought I was tall enough to miss a step and now it's so ugly!! When I did it everyone was like telling me how to jump like technique or whatever and then they were like but just dont think about it! And I was like mate you just told me all the stuff nah ahaha and then I just jumped it was so fun!! When Hurutea did it she took so long! She was standing on the edge for ever! When Awe jumped he did this haaaaliarious squel scream noise thing! It was so funny everyone was cracking up so much!! We were all just swimming and laughing and jumping of a briiidge! Everyone went to get drinks and fish and chips, we're such New Zealand kids haha! We had to wait 30 minutes nahaha but we all swam over to underneath the bridge to the log thing and I had to help Hurutea swim over and swim back hahaha thats true friendship! We did a mudslide thing and it was so much fun! But it looked sore as! Huruteah, Kzchian and Malcom were all doing water hair flips! Then styled Huruteas hair like a dog poo. They did some river dancing, did the thing when you fold your lid then put your tongue out and it looks like lips Kzchian put mud on Malcoms forehead like Simba and then picked him up and it was so funny! Everyone pee'd in the water, like literally everyone pee'd in that water sometime in the day! Everyone was saying "Get in the water! Get in! I'm sorry babe, babe get in the water" haha like we were all saing that! Me and Hurutea were li8ke underneath this tree and it had a swing so we said it so much! we were doing ab work outs with the piddly as rope swing ahahahha!

We all got and and said "a bit" of a preyer hahaha but then said bye to everyone and came home! We found this little music thing in the car, coz it wasn't our car, and we listened to my iPod which I hate coz like what if people don't like et and yeah I just don't like doing that hahah but it was alright! We had to play Rude twice coz it was almost over and we went over a bump and it unplugged or whatever so Kzchian made me play it again hahaha! Me and Natalia were talking about our country music obsessions! And the on that Guy Sebastian song Drums at the start it says ashes and so me and Evonne were craacking up at Hurutea! Travelling home is my favourite part of a trip coz you just reminice about the day, you just sit and it was cool as coz the moon was big as and the sun was setting! But like I just love all my friends and all my new friends I've met because of Hurutea and Olea

That was so long but it was honestly the bnest day ever! And like it was just simple and fun! Like I was talking to Asher today and I was just talking about how amazing it was and he was like bei that was just a normal day for us hahaha but that's sorta what makes it better! Then today when I showed my dad the photos he was like at you didnt jump over there ahahah! I'm so happy i said yes and went coz it was the best day ever! But I wish Olea coulda come too!

I took all the photos of Huruteas professional camera! It's sau cool having a friend who has a professional camera hahaha!

Asher being a model ahahahahah nah Evonne tried to take a photo and he was in the way ahahaha!

The trajectory of the angles and the speed at which you accelerate determines the length of your conquest ahahaha

The ab work out swing which was like the ab circle pro aye Teah!

Meaningful Mondays.

Animuls.

I love animals so much! The other day we watched this show about all THE cutest animals ever! They were all little tiny animals! Munchkin cats, teacup dogs, micro pigs, miniature ponies, gaaaah just too much cuteness! And that's when I actually thought about how much I love and obsess over animals!!

When I was younger I wanted to be a marine biologist, mainly because it sounded so professional and cool, I hardly even knew you had to do for it, and I don't even like science and biology! But I super duper love marine animals! I was born in the water so love swimming and am always the last to get out of the pool when all my siblings are out with towels wrapped around them! I love love love aquariums, I think they're the best things ever, not coz like all the fishes and stuff are in captivity that's like the bad side but I just love them! I love how blue the whole building is, seeing all the sharks and like dangerous predators, all the bright colourful creatures I just love aquariums and aquatic animals so much!! I honestly think it would be so cool working at an aquarium! Like you'd just get to swim round with fishes and seals all day long!! I wanna go swimming with whale sharks sooo bad! I think that would be the best thing ever! I really wanna go to the motel in Dubai where they have the room that has the aquarium as the wall! That would just be so amazingly perfect!!

When I was about seven we had three cats. Chloe, Licorice, and Jam Jar. Chloe was the old cat and then Licorice was my cat and she had her kittens on my bed, which it now know means that she trusted me the most or something like that which is so cool! I remember when she had her kittens and they were in their little box and I was talking to my nana on the phone and it was back in the olden days hahahaha but we had a proper big white phone with like an antenna and all, but I was talking to her and I was like "look nana look at my kittens" and thought that she could see them through the phone and she just pretended that she could, far I like fully remember that! So we were only allowed to keep one kitten and gave the rest away, so we kept one and it didn't have a name until one day Ton was playing with it in like our little play kitchen. We were fully set up! We had a little oven and just all that stuff that toy kitchens had, but we had little baby food jars as like "ingredient holders" and Ton somehow manager to put one of the jars on the little kittens head, idiot! So then dad had to get a hammer and smash the glass carefully, but that's why we called him Jam Jar! Every single morning, when I used to actually wake up before noon, I would fill up all of their bowls with food and that was my job and I did it every single morning! Far how do I even remember this! 

So then the little cats all just ran away I think? We don't really know what happened to them, but it obviously didn't affect me too much coz I don't remember? But ever since then I've wanted another kitten but my dad always said no and when I was like nine I made a slideshow of why I should have a kitten. The award for ugliest child goes to me. But it was so ugly and my mum loves it so much like honestly she still talks about it and how cute it was but my dad still said no. And now just this recent Christmas Ton somehow convinced dad to let me have one! It was gonna be the greatest Christmas ever and it would have been so perfect but our landlord said we weren't allowed one! Gaah I was honestly so sad when mum and Ton told me!! As soo as I get to England and I'm like settled down that's me man I'm getting a kitten!! I'm free I can do what I want hahahahha!!

Once I watched this movie and I don't remember what it was called but it had a blonde lady in it and she lived in the city in an apartment but she had a little pet pig!! And ever since then I've wanted one too! Another childhood story...when I was little and we lived on our farm we had a pig for so long like pretty much my whole life we lived out there! It was called Badger coz it had black patches kinda like a cow. Me and my sister were little farm babies so we'd always go feed the pigs and like call them up gaah we were so cute nahahahahaha!! My mum was obsessed with pigs! Literally everything in her room was pigs! She had a little sign on her door, so so so many little figurines, this weird quilt thing she was just obsessed! And now I want one hahaha! When I grow up I'm gonna live in the country and have pigs and fluffy cows, fluffy chickens, a donkey, I'm gonna have a bunny and a kitten, I'm just gonna have so many animals, but just like a cute little farm, it's gonna be super cute!! But not dogs, I don't really like dogs that much, I'm definetely a cat person.

My favouritest animal in the whole entire world are Pandas! I'm obsessed with them! I can spend hours watching videos of them, I follow like four accounts on insta that are just photos of pandas and I check the hashtag daily! I literally love them so much! I have a little panda notebook, a round little Chapstick, a pillow case and even the cutest little iPod case! When I went to Japan I looked up if there was a panda sanctuary near where I was staying but it was literally on the other side of the country but these girls got placed in the area where it was and I was sooo jealous coz all I got to look at was dinosaur museum! But I'm still thankful nonetheless (haha that is a weird single word!) I think it would be so cool if I grew up and worked with Pandas! Like I could look after the little babies in their cots and feed them and just play all day it would be so cute and I'd never want to go home! But then that obviously means I'd have to learn a whole nother language!! Like honestly how can anybody not love them, they make my heart melt! But gaaah I just love them so much and I want to see one in real life so so so badly!! I wanna see a chameleon too because those are hella epic!!

Oi what even was that! Just a huge ramble about animals, what, that's just 3am can't get to sleep writing for yah! But oh well I'm still gonna post it coz I ain't gon waste that beautiful essay of a post!! I love animals so much and wanna smish em, I'm so lame and weird :D

Who you are.

The other day it was just one of them days that I wanted to listen to Ed Sheeran so I was just on someone's youtube playlist and there was this cover of Jessie J's Who You Are and I pretty much just fell in love with it! I luv dat saaaong and just thought I'd blog about it!

I love the way Ed sings it and I love the message of it!

I stare at my reflection in the mirror

Why am I doing this to myself?

Losing my mind on a tiny error

I nearly left the real me on the shelf

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sometimes when when you just stand in the front of the mirror and you just think about all the bad stuff, all your flaws, just being negative and over analyzing every aspect of your life. Why? Why do we do that, and everyone does it! Why do we just let ourselves get in that place of self-hate!? It could be coz of like a mistake we made that day, something we said, something someone else said to us but it's all so little in the big picture of life. Then we try stop ourselves, no, you shouldn't feel this way or be thinking this stuff.

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

Be try to yourself even when you see like celebrities or even just other people, like you see their lies and what they have, all the material things. What you see may make you think that you will never make it, but you can believe in your dreams. Nobody's happy  and positive all the time everyday, you can be sad and down about stuff. You can go off the path to living your dream, it can be difficult when there's obstacles or other people criticizing you.

\Tears don't mean you're losing

Everybody's bruising

Just be true to who you are

You know when you cry over something and you're just like why? Why am I crying now, why over this? And I've definetely done that before, cried over someone and didn't want to because I knew they wouldn't cry over the whole subject, I felt like I was losing. But everyone gets like that, every one gets sad and upset, everyone's hurting. But you've gotta be you, deal with your emotions how you want to deal with them, don't let people tell you how to control your feelings, express yourself the way you want to and the way you feel neccassery.

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?

I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah

The more I try the less it's working, yeah, yeah, yeah

'Cause everything inside me screams

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no

Society has a way of making people feel like they need to be perfect. There's a mold or like a checklist of what someone has to look like, act like, say and do. And we, well at least I do, spend hours upon hours doing our hair, trying to find the perfect outfit and then it still doesn't quite work. I know how dat feels man! But it's like an internal battle with yourself and what society wants you to be.

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows like whoa

Just go and leave me alone

Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight

With a smile, that's my home, that's my home, no

No, no, no, no, no

"This song saved my life musically. The day before I wrote this song I was ready to give up music. It's amazing how three-and-a-half minutes of melody and lyrics can change your life and I'm so happy that not only has it saved my life but it's saving other people's."

The song hasn't like saved my life or anything, my life doesn't need saving at the moment but I love this song and can realate it to me. And know that it's impacted lots of people's lives. But gaah yes, I didn't mean for it to get all dark and hadn't really realsies how real or deep the lyrics were till knw when I properly looked at them. So yah! Don't let anyone or anything turn you away from being who you are. 

Also when I just googled the song to find the lyrics, this video came up and so i watched it and it was really really cool! It was like a video that Teah would show me but like I found it myself haha but yeah it's super cool and I'm pretty sure Olea and Teah will like it!

Beyoncé

Beyoncé. Beyoncé. Beyoncé. Just Beyoncé. Queen Bey. Yes just yes.

So everyone already knows that last month, last year, Beyoncé released and album with no warning, no advertising, no nothing! She just released it and it's perfect! It's flawless! Every single song is so good like yeah it's just like indescribable! It's so inappropriate too though! Like there's a couple of songs you wouldn't wanna sing with your grandma! 

I love the lyrics they're so good!!

Perfection is a disease of a nation
Plastic smiles and denial can only take you so far
I love you even more than who I thought you were before
All on Instagram, cake by the pound-my life in a sentence really
I sneezed on the beat and the beat got sicker
I wish that you were me, So you could feel this feeling
Sometimes I want to walk in your shoes do the type of things that I never ever do
We're so much more than pointless fixtures, Instagram pictures
I love you like XO-me and Dione always say that to eachother now
Heaven couldn't wait for you, no heaven couldn't wait for you, so go on, go home
When I look in your eyes, I feel alive

Then I love this part:
We teach girls to shrink themselves, to make themselves smaller
We say to girls: "You can have ambition, but not too much
You should aim to be successful, but not too successful
Otherwise, you will threaten the man"
Because I am female, I am expected to aspire to marriage
I am expected to make my life choices
Always keeping in mind that marriage is the most important
Now, marriage can be a source of joy and love and mutual support
But why do we teach girls to aspire to marriage
And we don't teach boys the same?
We raise girls to see each other as competitors
Not for jobs or for accomplishments, which I think can be a good thing
But for the attention of men
We teach girls that they cannot be sexual beings in the way that boys are
Feminist: a person who believes in the social
Political, and economic equality of the sexes.

I just love the album and dats de end of that!!

Work hard.

Third resolution!! I'm a year thirteen this year and as I've said multiple times I got level two at the end of term one last year and then proceeded to do nothing to try get level three! So I have to get all my level three credits this year -.- I wanna work real real real hard. Not procrastinate. Do homework. Don't talk in class. Like I ligetametely want to just work real hard! I wanna get a good pair of headphones, not earphones but headphones, so that I can block out dat world and do mah work!! Don't get distracted and don't be a distraction! Gaaaah I just wanna work so hard and finish it and just be all set up fo da future!! 

And I obviously still wanna have fun! Like what's the point of life if yew ain't havin fun!! I'll still laugh and talk sorta thing but I just wanna do it a lot less in class time!! I wanna really do this the whole year, well at least till I get my level three, not just first term but all of them!! Especially term two coz for the past two years those have been my worst terms!! I'm gonna have to make sacrifices, that makes it sound so dramatic, but like do my work and not go on ze interwebs! Seriouslaaaay! Okay! 

It's just me and my Hurutea this year! No Olea to bring me down nahahahaha! But hurutea does her work and is a good proper student so HOPEFULLY she'll be able to bring me up! Hurutea you're my last hope! You gotta help me hahahhah I'm saaau ugly but I neeeeed yeew! 

Work hard.

Just do eet.

Work hard!!

Yeh bye ._.

Choose happiness.

I think I'm gonna do a post for each resolution hahaha that's kinda cheating for the 100 mark but it's also coz I'll probably wanna write lots for each one so it's just nicer to put a big amount of effort into each one instead of trying to keep each one short so it's not a massively long post! Akay!

So! Choose Happiness! I have recently just got addicted to the Shaytards, which I'll probably do a blog about, but they're always going on about choosing happiness. When something makes you angry, irritates you, just like a time where you could flip yo stuff everywhere you have to make the decision whether you're gonna get angry or upset about it or if you're gonna be like nah I'm not gonna let this affect me, I'm not gonna let it get to me and completely ruin my day. You're choosing happiness. Why waste time being real negative when you could just get over it, this may be much easier said than done but I'm properly gonna try like keep my emotions in check! 

"Happiness is a choice.  For every minute you are angry or irritated, you lose 60 seconds of happiness.  Be happy.  Be yourself.  If others don’t like it, then let them be.  Life isn’t about pleasing everybody."

From this little blog that has 10 ways to be happy.

Also not just getting angry or sad, but worrying! That's was one of my resolutions from last year, and I didn't like focus on it because I didn't have an easy little saying to remind myself like I do now which is Choose Happiness! What is the point of worrying and over thinking. Like literally all you're doing is stressing and making yourself feel like absolute crap and the other person, assuming there's another person involved or the reason that you're worrying and stressing, they don't even care! They're not thinking half the things you are and it probably doesn't concern them one little bit! So don't worry and over think. Go do something fun. Force yourself to take your mind off the subject. Go outside. Laugh with your friends. E-mail your nana! You know what that's what I'm gonna do anytime I get stressed or worried about anything! E-mail my nana and ask her how she's doing, what she's doing in the weekend, just how her day was! That's how I'm going to choose happiness, by making her happy, because she always tells me how much she loves me e-mailing her! That's actually got me so happy and excited! But just do something that isn't being trapped inside your own head. Don't dwell! Yes don't dwell on stuff, don't hold grudges, because what's the point! 

I have my goal, not only for the year but fo' lyfe! I have how I'm gonna accomplish it, I feel like I'm at school hahaha! I even have my quick easy two words! Choose Happiness. Just make that decision. I'm not gonna say it's so easy coz I don't know. But I'm just gonna try my hardest.

That's only one resolution man! Hahah see lucky I'm doing a post for each! Yo so peace out and Choose Happiness