Dreams dreams dreams.

Decided imma write me dreams down on here coz I have the weirdest randomest dreams! Can't decide if I should write my older ones as well that I've written in my journal? Maybe I'll write them one day when I'm bored!

Okrrrd! Last night haha

It was like candy crush and I walked into this level and the kardashian sisters were there and I had to like fight them like fruit ninja! Then Kim, the pregnant one, was like errmahgerd and had to like go lie on the couch! S then the Jonas brothers came in and I had to fight them and it was just random as!

I'm just gonna do that every morning I remember my random dreams! But probably not in the morning coz I have like five minutes to get ready hahaha

Being a Kapa Haka princess.

A few weeks ago I had to step up and perform for our school Kapa Haka group. One of the girls rolled her ankle so I had to do ma job and rock that stage! I was dismissed from my classes to practise haha I love my school! I was so nervous because I knew how much it meant to everyone and I didn't want to muck it up! My beautiful sister helped me with the poi and I got the one and only Kapa Haka Queen and little doughboy Hun to help me while they practiced their speeches. It was fun but just scary knowing that I had three days to learn a bracket! 

But I did it!! We went up to Te Waiu (where they have the best looking boys) Had the best feeds, made the best memories and I performed!! I felt so sick before we went on and I did muck up up but then everyone said they did haha! We came second!!....the other way :/ which we so didn't deserve! Everyone looked so good and I can't wait to see the actually video! Because the video we do have is not that great. I told everyone my job was important, Lytton have all these great photos and we have a bad quality video :/ err'one needs to stop worrying bout me and just worry bout themselves because if I didn't like something I wouldn't do it! And if I don't wanna do something then I don't. Oosh that turned into a rant quickly! But I was there to help out and performing was not what I had in mind but as long as I helped and that's like my favourite thing to do is make others feel good by helping! 

But yeah I'm super happy I helped out! I'm so proud of our speakers and everyone and just like a proud momma! Love that group, love my school love ma whole life yah know!! 

So there's this giraffe.

I have a sister. Her name is Toni. Everyone calls her Ton. It's short for Tone (toh-neh). That means private parts in maori. Tehe.

She's been on this earth for fourteen years and she is one of my best friends. Yah wanna know why I love her so much? Do yah really?

1. We do the craziest stupidest things together! Don't worry I have photos :D

2. She's a maori thug at heart like me. Probably cuz we grew up exactly the same duh! But she is so hori! And it's only got worse with her hanging out with her bestfriend Georgette. But she is way more "rough" than me and Teahs always saying that too!

3. I tell her everything and anything. She will just sit there and listen to me go on and on for hours! And she does tell me she hates it sometimes when I go on about the future and my wedding hahah. She knows pretty much everything about me! All my "secrets", problems, wishes, and ideas and I love her for that, but she doesn't talk as half as much as me so I don't know all that stuff about her, but I actually don't think she overthinks everything as I do so she probably hasn't got all that to tell!

4. She is so ugly but in the prettiest way possible. She is noticeably skinnier than me and she is the "model" like one, but she has some haaaanum facials!! But she does still look aiight!?

5. She is so clumsy! She's broken her arm ones, and in primary there wasnt a single week she didn't stub her toe at least once. Literally. Well it seemed that way when we were little! She always has little bruises all over her arms and legs! Haha she gets dragged down the hill by Italian girls in harnesses :D

6. We get so hyper and in that everything's funny so we're gonna laugh till we get in trouble from mum then carry on laughing anyways mood, at the same time so it's fun fun fun times! It's usually really late aswell haha but I love when were hyper like that.

7. Because I have to. She's my sister and we've grown up together, we have hundreds of memories and I just love her in so many millions of ways!! I love her, why not end on a cute note of photos from the olden days! Not good quality sorry but really not sorry!

Hope y'all enjoyed that! Stay tuned for three more post similar to this! Coz I have so many friends >:D

Insomnia.

I have so much trouble trying to go to sleep at night. I went to bed seven hours ago because I have school tomorrow yet I am still awake. -.- whyyyy!! I love sleep! I could definitely class it as one of my favorite things to do but aaargh! When I can't get to sleep I get real mad at myself which makes me more unable to go to sleep!

I'll be super tired so I close my eyes and play my calm slow music but then literally like five songs will pass and that's like 15 minutes so then I decide to just go on my iPad, but no-ones online anything. No-ones on Facebook because they're all asleep. No ones on Instagram even the celebrities and stuff coz they're all out being famous. No new videos from youtubers coz I've watched them all. And no-ones on Pinterest coz most of the people I follow are from the other side of the world and are at work or school!

But I do my best. I watch oooooold vlogs or go through a random persons boards and like everything because I'm too tired to re-pin it. Tired but not sleepy! There is a difference.

I dunno if I believe that people who can't get to sleep are smarter than people who can. Or that people who sleep 6-7 hours instead of 8 live longer and just a lot of facts about sleeping that could be true but then there's a bunch of facts saying the exact opposite so who really knows anything!!! *cough* man landing on the moon *cough* I used to believe that if you can't go to sleep it's because you're awake in someone else's dream, because that means I'm just a dream girl who everyone just loves to dream about but if that's true then I would very much appreciate it if they stopped!

The other day I couldn't go to sleep till five o'clock in the a.m!! Guess what time I had to wake up? Six :D one single hour of sleep. I woke up and drank not a whole but half an energy drink and was bouncing of the walls! I was so hyper it wasn't funny! I dunno why I told you that.

When it's real early and you're so bored and you just play the stupid games you have and then you get addicted to card games and kaleidoscope apps which are meant for children!

I'm always the last to fall asleep at sleep overs especially coz my friends go to sleep super fast! But like if I'm like energy deprived and like had a super busy day or something I'll go to sleep well but otherwise nah. Listening to my music tryna find things to do :/

Yup hope you enjoyed reading that. Whatever it was. I'm not gonna go to sleep now. I'm probably just gunna go plan my wedding a bit more because who isn't doing that at 2am on a school night?

British bucketlist.

I don't know who will care? But in two years I plan to move to England and here's a little list of things I want to do whilst there! My mum and dad were like "it's not a bucketlist coz you're not gonna die" so it's my to-do list for ze land of Eng!

Bask in all the attention I'll get for being foreign

Drink gallons of tea

Flat in London

Work in London

See a youtuber!!

Get an accent

Save a crud load of money

Spend a little less than a crud load

Buy the perfect presents

Join a gym and actually go!

Get a boyfriend haha! Not compulsory though!

Get some friends!!

Get a job

Go on a road trip

Travel Europe!

Try every Ben and Jerry's

Eat endless amounts of rhubarb and custard bonbons

Go to the 'beach'

Go to all the places with the funniest names, and there's a lot!!

Enjoy every single rainy day

Actually do what me and Ton have planned and get a typewriter to send letters to eachother! I think that's adorable reall!

Crushes.

So the other day me and Ton were having a deep and meaningful talk about life the universe and everything, which obviously included boys! We both counted up how many we had ever liked, her total was about six or seven, mine was a embarrassingly high twenty five!! She actually couldn't believe me! And to be honest I couldn't believe myself either, until I asked Olea how many she had like and she said twenty one, which made me feel a hundred times better about myself, even if she's lived longer than me.

So here it goes! I won't say their names, just the reasons I liked them I guess? They're not in order be-te-dub. And its so ugly how long crushes can last so theres gonna be a few five minute crushes too but you know what yolo.

#1 This was the first guy I liked all through primary school, he was older than me and I thought he was pretty good looking, and he got along so well with our teachers little granddaughter, everyone knew I liked him too!

#2 I dunno I just did? He was funny, had a really husky voice, he did this really funny Donald Duck impression!? And we were like best friends too.

#3 I didn't really wanna like this guy but I did, I'd known him since primary and he was the only one from TK in my class at GisInt so we became pretty close, and he was real funny too.

#4 He was tall and good looking! And funny! I remember on picture day and he wasnt there and I was sooo sad because I wouldn't be able to look at him, how creepy!

#5 This guy was so funny, when our teacher was like oh and you need to hand in dadada he'd always be like "oh haven't even started miss" I thought it was the funniest thing ever! And he was good looking.

#6 We had a seating arrangement haha and wooden desks! Those were the days haha! I sat next to this guy and I remember we had to do an inquiry about an athlete from the Olympics, he did Usain Bolt and printed like 56 pages from Wikipedia, then when we had to talk about it he just talked about how he liked chicken nuggets, the teacher was like oh okay. Yeah.

#7 This was the oldest guy I liked ever, and it was when I was young aaas like 10! And he was like 23? Handsome little kid ellen!! He was my uncles wife's brother, so we weren't really related but kinda which makes it worse, and he had a girlfriend so I really didn't like her until she made me a nice cup of tea, so I liked her. And know they're super duper cute together. He's still got the funniest laugh though.

#8 He's mega tall now! He was just a cheeky immature boy. He was part of the cool boys group? And they all liked Pokemon and I went home and printed off a list of all the Pokemon things and tried to learn them, ugggghh this is making me realise how ugly I was!!

#9 When I was in England this new boy started and then on the first day after the holidays he wasnt there and I asked my friend and they were just like oh he's a new boy, I pictured him tall and maori I dunno why, but then he came to school and I was wrong as!! Then we were in the same group for an inquiry with Seth and he was being such a dick and annoying me so much! Then the other boy stuck up for me, so yeah obviously i liked him.

#10 Tall, dark hair, funny aaas, then we had nicknames, and I don't have many nicknames for people or people have nicknames for me! Ahahah then when I talked to him on FB and he actually used the properest of grammar, so I actually liked him more haha!

#11 we used to argue all the time, he used to disagree with me a lot, but he could sing and he was maori saaau and we went on the same bus for a while.

#12 taller than me, cool eyes. But then I found out he was a bad boy so I was like woaah no. He was the first guy i liked here! But him and his girlfriend are so cute now, and we're bros!

#13 I liked this guy for like a week? He was like really nice to me? He took the blame when I broke the cupboard, and then when I left for a trip and he was like "Ellen bye!" From across the road! And we argued which is just how i communicate and show my love ahahhaa

#14 he was meeega short! He was in my kotahitanga group and he was a year 13 so he was like a leader and cool as with the little kids. He had pretty eyelashes haha. And he was pretty funny.

#15 I thought he was younger than he was, so I thought he'd be in my class, but he obviously wasnt. Haha but then we were in the same inspire, it was like half way through the term, and he had to do the roll and I was sitting like right by him, when he got to my name he was like "Ellen, who's Ellen?" And my friend Bailey was cracking up and I was just like oh that's me so yeah, but know we're friends and he's funny as. Oh yeah and then once he wore a beanie, beanies are my weakness truly.

#16 We were in drama together, he was real short, but this was when I wasn't as tall, he was really funny he was a year 13, he looked like Jamie Oliver and got offended when people called him that, I always wanted to go to bunnings when someone went, just because he worked there. Ohmygoodness.

#17 This was in Japan and this guy from Oz was pretty cute, and like walked me to my room when i had to grab something, I think he was a bit shorter than me, he had cool eyes, I thought he was pretty cool. Til he asked me what sports I played and I said basketball (aall lies, I just didn't want to seem lazy haha) then I was like oh what about you, then he went on and he was like oh I'm a national gymnast dadada and just had a huge braaag. I dunno it just annoyed me so much!! But then it made me realise that I ask questions to get other people opinions but also to share mine too! But far I don't even remember his name!

(Future ellen here from 2014 and I was gonna delete that whole thing coz i didn't actually like him like him, i mean i didn't even know his name! But that basketball thing is priceless!)

#18 My two friends said that i suit this boy and he was super suuuuper funny and he was tall, and he was like a good church boy so he was so nice aswel!

#19 Haha i don't even talk to this guy anymore but i don't talk to pretty much any of the other ones any ones hahah! but i met this boy last year and we talked for ages and i had known him since intermediate but he didn't know who i was so i felt super creepy! but then we started talking on Facebook heaps! we would send the longest messages to each other just about heaps of stuff and he was really cool to talk to, Ton would always be like ooooh who you talking to your internet boyfriend, but i don't know if i actually liked him but i know i loved talking to him!

#20 this guy, okay so I've talked to him like five times max? But our mums were bestfriends and we were born around the same time, so we grew up together, but in different countries? Each time we've gone back to England we visit them but I didn't think much of him, until the last time we went back. He is so freaking tall, and has the deepest voice, I didn't think that matter but it made him different. He's just so tall, and nice. Last time I went we didn't talk at all but that's when I started liking him. And I think the main reason I like him is because of our non-existent love story, haha I just keep thinking about like at our wedding there would be all our photos of us as baby's, but we're together, so he was like my first bestfriend. I just think that's adorable haha. And he's British which is just an obvious reason. Only reason I'm going to live there aye just to get ma mayun. Haha it's not though, just to make that clear.

#21 I liked this guy in year seven and I could never remember his name and then he wasnt in my maori class any more so just forgot about him and then he was in my class at Lytton. We always always argued and he annoyed me so much and then just one day in I.t.c class I started liking him, and it was quite obvious because my best friend asked me straight after. He was tall, funny as, smart, but incredibly stupid, sweet, but horrible, and we just had so many big arguments! I remember when we had to make this movie for class and I was in his group it was so so so fun! We filmed it at my house and it was so funny, AHAHA he had to kiss me on the cheek coz I was his "mum" ahaha and he had to run past so he kinda just smashed his face into mine :/ he had a girlfriend the whole time I liked him though. Yeah. Lots of memories with him hahahaha why am i so ugly!!

So in conclusion I fall for people quite easily, if your funny, tall, smart, good looking or simply just wear a beanie, boy you got a pretty good chance! Yup. Twenty one boys. I think that's outrageous. Yeah. I'm sixteen in three months so that means there's an 80% chance I've already met my future husband, he might be apart of that list, but I do highly doubt that! Byyyye!!

Ahahahaha update!! I just saw this on Pinterest and had to post it on here! I don't even really know how much more perfectly this could fit me!?

Selfies yo.

I'm not the type of girl who spends every minute of every day taking photos of themselves. I don't judge people who do, I just don't do it. I take photos with other people or by myself around other people? If that makes sense? In the weekend we went to hack falls again for the Easter weekend. Dione, Jade and Georgette came with us and all three of them take a lot of photos of themselves. I'm not a camera hater, unless I look absolutely atrocious, so I took a few "selfies" or duoies? Haha photos with two people? And between all five of us we had a lot of camera devices. There's a lot and I don't know what to do with them, I've Instagrammed a few and I think Instagram is to show the different things you do so if I put up a million photos of the same time era (?) it would be annoying. So ya know what, why not privelage you all with ma sexy bootay face! You're welcome in advanced for me making your day a million times better :D

On Saturday we went to town just to go grocery shopping, i literally took 2 hours to get ready, it was hot so i didnt want to wear a jumper but i did. i just had a shower and ma huurr wasnt really working, i tried literally every hairstyle i could think of, but then i decided to wear it down. it was really pretty and curly so yeah selfies in the car yolo!

Yah know always gotta take silly selfies :D 

Trying my hardest to show my little baby dimple .____.

Dione's so influential she got ma whanau to pose for some pics :D

Great weekend. Great friends. Great photo's. Not so great scary lake spirits.