Everyone's growing up.

Yes it's late and yes I'm already crying! Over the past couple of weeks it's really dawned on me that life is a big deal hahahaha. Everyone around me has already grown up so much since I first met them. Like everyone my age are basically adults! It's our last few years of highschool and then that's it we're out in the world where anything can happen. 

So many people around me are doing grow up things all the time, they have jobs, are drinking, leaving school, having babies! And like it's not all bad like that's not completely bad stuff and who am I to say what's good and what's bad, but it's grown up stuff sorta and I'm just here watching my disney movies and still talking to Ton about boy germs hahahahha! Even just seeing on Facebook what people who I'm not even really close with are doing with their lives, everyone just seems so grown up. Everythings so serious, every decision seems so life changing when actually it's not. 

I'm really sad that this is my last ever year at highschool because I honestly love my school so much and love everyone who goes there, it's so easy to be friends when you see them everyday and that means the reality is that after highschool we're not gonna be as close as we are now. Like I know that I'm gonna try my very dang hardest to keep the bonds with my "mains" ahahahaha but like me Olea, Teah, Donny, Angel and Bly will hopefully still be real close when we're all older and then Ton will still be close with her crew which means we will too and then like olea and teahs family will still be with them and that doesn't even make any sense but I dunno. Like movies and glee hahaha make it out that they all go off and never ever see eachother ever, and maybe that will happen but right now I can't see that happening. I don't even really know what I'm even saying. 

Everyone's growing up and I find that scary, I wanna stay in highschool forever but then I literally cannot wait and never stop thinking about next year and when I'm an adult and everything! And with everyone doing adult things around me, you do you and dont do anything too stupid, and I'm totally not saying that I'm completely innocent and never do or say anything bad because I do and in today's world honestly no-one is perfectly clean and like perfect, not even Teah! Everyone's changing and we're all being made to make decisions that we'll carry with us for the rest of our lives and that's scary as heka but for now I'll just go eat pizza and laugh at stupid uni-corns with my Mormon buddies :D