November Faves

Purpose omgggg Purpose gives me purpose this album is amazing like it kills me how much i love it ahahhhaah every song is so good aw man i love mark my words, life is worth living, purpose and all the singles omg its just so good and i love that olea loves it too and we can obsess over it!!

Six60 album, i rlly love New Zealand and its music and its movies and i love six60 coz i'm just so proud of them and love all the songs and had to buy the album coz i couldn't get all the songs on youtube and i just aw man i love them, then we went to Mahia and listened to Dont go changing like 3 times so now that will always remind me of that day! I love Mothers Eyes and Fade to Grey and all of them except not really Marks on the walls, not too keen on that one but i just love six60 so much man.

When we went to Mahia Kiana and Kapri came with us and we stopped at the supermarket first and they got Aloe vera water and i was like what the heck, they left it in my car and so i tasted it and it was so not what i expected omgggg and now i'm flippen addicted to it like im obsessed with it and it only comes in this huge as bottle i cant even ahahah and now i want some.

My summer memz scrapbook! I love it i think it looks so blimmen good and love making it, it takes 4ever to make one page but i love it and hope i finish it ahahahhaah so i can keep it forever and remember the memz!!

Tori Kelly colours of the wind is the actual best cover of an amazing song i've ever heard i love it so much she's amazing and the song is amazing its just such a fkn tune ahahahah i love it, dont really like any of the other we love disney covers like i thought i would but i just blimmen love that song!!

October Faves

I freaking love candles. I love scents and just freaking love candles, everyone was giving me growling for buying so many but i burnt them all!! I wrote out a whole list of them and i just love them so much and always want my house to smell nice.

Primark!!! I am obsessed with Primark like i could go there every dang day. I love all the basics like singlets and longs, headbands and basics, i love it and when i come back i am gonna have to go once a month at least ahahaha.

Me and ton started watching American Horror Story at the start of the year and we would just Facebook call and watch it together ahahaah but then we watched it together again and omg I love it!! We didn't watch it in order we watched Coven then Freakshow and I can't remember if it was asylum or murder house?  But ton doesn't like Asylum but I really did! I didn't like murder house that much coz the mum was hellaaaaa annoying ahahaha but OMG Evan Peters is actually gorgeous. He's so beautiful and Emma Roberts was good too and Kathy Bates will always be amazing I just really like the casting and how it's the same cast but so totally different story each season like that's cool for this generations hella short attention span!

He Mele No Lilo! I don't know why but me and ton loved this song and committed to learning all the words ahahha it's so blimmen difficult but we know most of them know and can like sing them in the shower without the song ahahaha but I just blimmen love it and I love Lilo and stitch too i just love hawaii ahaha.

Selena's album!! Its amazing omggg me and Ton have just been listening to it at the whole time! I love Kill'em with Kindness, Sober, Camouflage, Cologne, just all of them ahaha i love it and i love her its so cool and different and grown up, proud of my geol ahahah!

Jack Barrans Art Playlist, its so good and its just on spotify and i love pretty much every song! I love the chill vibe and its different to the normal music i listen to, it makes me feel like TA or something with edgy hipster chill music ahahaha i just luv it and i need download all the songs. 

Me and Ton started playing this game called Township to see who would get to the highest level and just like a competition, I'm obviously wining and wasting all my dang tim eon this stupid game ahahah.

Making videos!!! I love it so much! When we were in Bath i was like omg i wanna make one of those montages like eon LOL the stupid movie haha abut like when they're in Paris i just wanted to try make one so i start filming short little bits and then chucked them all together in iMovie and then found the perfect song it was beautiful omg i was obsessed with it ahahah. Then i made one of our trip to london and that was just a quickie fun one, then dad wanted me to do one of the wine and cheese  festival ahah and i got over 300 clips so it was biatch to edit omg! Then we went to the fair an that one was cool, then lastly i made a big long one of the babies for Bonnie coz she loves them so much! And  just love them so much.

Candle Haul

Sooo when i was living in england i discovered yankee candles, the cheap tealights are the ones i bought ahahaha and loved them, but i just love candles ahahahah and theres so many freaking scents. Since we've come back and i can actually go out rather than staying home ahahaha. Mum and Ton gave me growling saying i won't be able to take them home but i actually literally just burned them allll ahahaha aw except the vanilla cookie one coz like the glass went black so i didn't wanna burn it ahahaha but the i saw a video where Gabby lit a big yankee candle jar and the whole rim was black ahahaha. But heres all the ones i bought and burnt over in England ahahahah.

Vanilla Cookie from Homesense
Starwberry flower and Lily from Poundland
Sweet Coconut and Vanilla from Primark
Red Berries and Jasmine from Primark
White Tea and Peony from Primark
Frosted Berries from Matalan
Soft Blanket from Yankee Candle
Lovely Kiku from Yankee Candle
Strawberry Buttercream from Yankee Candle
Black Cherry from Yankee Candle

Theeeeeen we went to this huge garden centre where they had a whole corner of Yankee candles and i smelt every. single. one. Ahahahah i did feel a bit dizzy after but i took photos of all the ones i like the most so this is my wishlist, like this was s huuuuuge corner of candles but on the yankee candle website there are like hundreds more and it stresses me out that ill never be able to afford or have room or time for them all hahahahaha. But this is the wishlist so far:

Serengeti Sunset
Madagascan Orchid
Mandarin Cranberry
Pink Grapefruit
Pink Sands
Lemon Lavender
Aloe Water
Vanilla Lime

They were all so good and it made me so happy coz the display was all colour co-ordinated so it was like a rainbow of candles. So yeh thats just a glimpse of my candle obsession over 6 weeks ahahahhhaa. Love me some scented candles :)

Feeling content.

Its 7:36pm on a Sunday night, I've spent all day listening to Selena Gomez's new album, showing people my video of Friday night, and just got back from the barn having Chinese for tea, now watching one of the best movies there is About Time. I'm feeling very content with my life right now.

This trip to England has had a lot of emotions and confusion involved. For six months of this year, this was my space, i didn't do much while i was here but it was a peaceful place where i could be sad. Its the complete opposite this time, everyones here, in my space, being noisy and eating all the food, nanas not just fussing over me she's fussing over 6 of us, but i am so much happier. Its been difficult but i am happy. We've done something almost everyday but then we've had lots of chill time aswell. It's so weird coz it is a family vacation so we're all forced to be together which is chaotic and infuriating at times but i love it.

I wanted to write this to document my happiness. I don't always like broadcasting my emotions to the world, to my friends and family yes, but very rarely do i write statuses about how annoying my brothers are being, or what a good day i've had, but, i do recognise my emotions and know that this place and these people have made me feel the not so good feelings only just the other day ahahaha and I just wanted to be able to look back and remember that timing and people can change everything.

It's so nice seeing my mum and dad with all their friends and me and ton keep saying what we'll be like when we're that age with all our friends and stuff. Talking about memories and just thinking that all those times that they're talking about haven't even even begun to happen in our lives yet. We have so many year of living and memory making ahead of us. Reminding myself to take a step back from worrying about what I'm doing at the moment with school and jobs and just focus on having a good time, with good people, making memories we can all sit around talking about.

Definitely want to come back and live here with Ton, just when we're a bit older and independenter ahahaha. I do love it here and i love my family and all mum and dads friends who are like family to us. Boys aren't too bad here either are they. I'm not worried about getting a job here because I've done it before haven't I, 3 blimmen times ahahaha. Just wanna have a fun life and experience as much as possible.

September Faves

Dark Times by The Weeknd and Ed Sheeran, me and Olea listened to it the whole time i was in Hamilton and i love Ed Sheerans part at the start, but still don't know the words and thats so frustrating when you love a song but don't know the words ahahahah.

Thats how you know! I loooooveee this song by Nico & Vinz its just such a fun summer song and its totally unrelatable but i love it and its just catchy af ahahah.

DRIVING!!!! I got my freaking Restricted license!!!! On the 9th of September i passed and it was the best thing ever omg. It was so stressful coz i had already failed twice, and then when we went in the car i use was being serviced coz they had messed up the days so i was gonna have to use mums Kardashian truck and it was so stressful ahahaha but i got to do it in the lil car, and i only went for 45 minutes so i thought i failed but i think its coz i had just done it recently so he knew i could drive, but when he was like today i can tell you that you have passed i was like omg are you sure really i was so happy man and then he kept telling me all these things i needa work on ahahaha i was like nah nah nah you already said i passed!! Im still such a nervous driver and have only driven to the hospital and home ahahah so not even in town ahahah. But yaaaasss finally!!

Jesse McCartney! I found all his music like last year or something but overlooked heaps of it but now just went back and fell in love with his latest albums because omg they're so stupid but so catchy i love them all so much ahahahah I listened to I'm all the way to Hamilton. My favourite song ever is Body Language ahahahah its so freaking good and hensim man!! Same with Daddy's Little Girl ahahahah.

I think I'm in Love byyyy Kat Dahlia! Its from Greys Anatomy and the start is so good and fast and catchy, i still don't know the words but i just like it a lot, and ton likes it too i just do like the greys anatomy soundtrack but not so much andy more where they use the same artists songs like 3 times in an episode. But i love that song.

At the start of the month mum went to the dentist and i stayed in the car so i was just playing on her phone like a lil kid but i was playing Freecell, which she used to play aaaalll the time when we were little but i wanted to beat her time or moves highscore, which i did ahahaha and then i got it on my phone and i really like it!! Yeah thats it. Im really bad at it and use hints all the time but idc.

Lastly is a song by Ruth B called Lost boys and i am so obsessed with it its not even funny. I always believe that music is made to be shared but not if someones not gonna appreciate it. So i knew i was obsessed with this song and absolutely in love with it so i showed it to Toni and Olea AND THE TON SHOWED IT TO HUN who then freaking put the lyrics as her d.p caption and it made me so annoyed coz gah i just love it and its like a lil piece of my heart ahahahahah and i didn't want anyone to just be like meh yeah its alright idk ahahah but i just love that song.

No idea.

15th September

I feel like i’m stuck in a bit of a rut in life at the moment, with no plan or any ideas of how to get out of this lil funk. I’ve spent a few days perfecting my sad songs playlist and a couple of late nights googling what to do with your life if you don’t know what the hell your doing. The thing that i admired most about these blog posts and articles i was reading about was the sense that everyones been through this phase in their life. I feel like I’m not following societies plan for me, finish high school, go to college, get a job and start a family, i feel like i’m a no-life and have been outcast from everyone who was following this plan, but reading more and more about people who are in similar situations to mine has made me feel included, like we’re all lost, but we’re in one big room all being lost together. Even though i had never met any of the people writing and commenting on these posts, i felt connected and comforted by the things they were saying.

It’s 3am and i’ve just been watching youtube videos, but specifically BuzzFeed videos. Just admiring how i love all these characters who i watch all the time, except they’re not characters because they’re straight up normal people going their opinion on different types of milk. But i know their names and follow them on instagram and would most probably fangirl if i ever got to meet any of them. I often think when i watch videos of them interviewing one another at the Buzzfeed headquarters what an awesome place it would be to work, alongside all those cool personalities that i look up to. Because that is their work and it is a business but it provides so much entertainment for so many people and i just think its so cool because their just being themselves and giving their opinions and i love it. I always wonder what it would be like to be a part of that.

Hurutea said something to me today along the lines of “what would you do for the rest of your life if you didn’t get paid for it” and it made me think a lot, and thats one of the things that has got me in my little life rut at the moment because i don’t have any deep passions or talents that i’m amazing at. I just feel mediocre. And thats what frustrates me aswell because i want to do something that i love everyday but i have no idea what. The things I think of when i think of the things i love is, social media, music, movies, my friends and family, travelling, lists, and writing- even though i may not be the best writer i still love it, when i have a problem and it’s 3am the first thing i wanna do is write about it, i might wake up in the morning and read through it and it will not make any sense at all but it makes me feel so good to get everything out and to just see it staring back at me, i feel like its a way to sort of be physically face to face with my problems instead of just bottling up my emotions in my head. But those things aren’t really career building aspects. Or so I thought.

I went to the toilet and was thinking about how much I really truly do like BuzzFeed,  i loved it when i was in England and all the BuzzfeedUK post showed up and could vaguely relate to some of the posts and it would probably be my favourite website. I thought “hmm i’d really like to be involved in that” so searched up BuzzFeed internships which i thought would just be getting coffee and filling papers but there are sooooo many jobs all to do with that company and I just fell in love with the idea. I have no idea if i could do it and most of the jobs were in New York but i have no idea what I’m doing at this time in my life and am sort of collecting ideas and inspiration so i really think this will go to the top of my list, above summer camp next year in June and a level 2 maori certificate. 

I haven’t got a freaking clue.

August Faves

PLL! So in like 2012 or 13 i started watching Pretty Little Liars but I get confused very easily, i like shows that don't have too many storylines going on at once or really long on going storylines, i just simply can't keep up ahaha but I decided to try again because Ton told me too and also beca the big A reveal was happening this month and i did want to try watch it all in like 20 days, do-able but I found out who A is midway through season 3 maybe ahahahah. I am loving it though and Ton is so sick of all my references and whenever something bad happens or anything I'll say it was A, and i have dreams about Rosewood and stuff ahahahah.

Songs. I'm not calling you a liar by Florence and the machine, it was on PLL and i really love it. Ma boyyyy Josh Golden and Andrew Garcia's song One Way Ticket, its so super cute i like it. Telegraph Ave/Sober by Daniela Andrade is such a good cover i really love it, and now i can't think of how i found her? But she has a small christmas EP. Speaking of christmas ahahaha i have downloaded all my christmas songs and been so excited, not for christmas yet but for christmas music definitely i have about 60 songs in my playlist 😂 And the Hold Me by Janine and the Mixtape, its a bit controversial between me and Olea on who showed it to who but its such a chill cool song.

This song needs its own paragraph. I Will Be There by Odessa is the best song. It was on Greys Anatomy and i love Greys soundtrack but was so freaking disappointed with the last season but i won't go into that because i love this song so freaking much. My favourite line is "If you ever need someone to just love you, If you ever need someone, to simply adore you, I will be there" I love the whole freaking song so much and listened to it when i went through the tree tunnels going to Hamilton and it was just perfect.

The Longest Ride and The Best of Me. The latest Nicholas Sparks movies which I've only just got around to watching and I'm in love with them. The soundtracks are so perfect and I'm obsessed with them. I've only watched The Best of Me once but its so good and i love James Marsden, its just so good. But i have The Longest Ride on my laptop so have watched it a few times and my favourite part is when she grabs his hat to give it back and he's like "keep it" ahahaha I love itttt!!! but yeah both bomb soundtracks.

Obsessed with Subway Surfers. Like completing all the missions and challenges and i even beat Ashers high score, 7 million for meeeee. Ahahah its so stupid but i love it love it love it!

So i had Netflix in England and didn't think anything of it but then just got a free month trial and omg it is so good and has all the shows i need to watch and love and I'm just obsessed with it!! We have apple tv so can watch it in the lounge and Tons on it and its just so freaking good!!

I'm not usually allowed energy drinks because i'm prone to migraines ahahah but caffeine isn't a useful factor into preventing them, but after i failed my driving test me and mum went to just a bakery and mum accidentally got a Blue V so i drank it and it was so good so i've been buying those but like i just wish you could buy it without the energy coz i just like the flavour