October Favourites.

BuzzFeed this website is life. I'm obsessed with lists and lists with pictures and gif's just take that obsession to a whole new level. I love it so freaking much man like its just set out so well and has so much news and so much stuff that anyone can be interested in like i just can't get over it ahahahah.

Our new little baaaaaybeeey Tiggy!! I love her so much even though she gets so annoying she's just too cute and gaaaah i love her!

Aw when i was at Huruteas house, henry was watching this movie and us girls were just watching youtube on our laptops but i could still hear the movie, and the soundtrack was pretty cool. The movie was about chess it was The Last King or something like that? But these two songs from Aceyalone are so cool! Push N pull and To The Top hahaha they're in my shower playlist and they're just so upbeat and fun!!

THE THINKING OUT LOUD VIDEO CLIP!!! Ed Sheeran is actually life. I don't know how people can not like him because he is so perfect. Thinking Out Loud has been my favourite song ever since i first heard it months ago ahahah and now its a single so everyone else loves it which is kinda guttering but its aaaight i'll get over it ahahahaha. But the video clip just came out and its so freaking amazingly perfect i can't get over this ahahahaha he's so sexy and looks so good and I'm just so proud of him coz he worked so hard on it i just love him. end of story.

Ton's music ahahah ton has a different sort of taste in music to me but i still like most of hers and so she always plays her music and i get into it so i start playing it and she gets annoyed but ti just like all the randomness theres too much to list but just trust me that i like it ahahhaah.

I have been cooking so freaking much this month its not even funny like head as of dinners and heaps of baking I've just had so much fun doing it! Trying new recipes, just trying to build up a repertoire or whatever ahahah for over in England hahhaha yeh.

AJR cute little band of brothers with real catchy songs that do have all that computer dub step stuff that i don't usually like but i don't mind it in their songs!!

The 1975, obsessed with this band. I love their songs, their look like their bad boy-ness and they're just legit cool. Girls and Chocolates are my favourite singles but then their cover of What Makes You Beautiful is so freaking good i just really like them and they're coming to NZ but next year when i aint here! Just like eddy boy aye! But i really wanna see them live ahahahh i just like them a lot, one more band full of boys to add to the list.

Ebola Joke. It's so bad like so so so bad but its so good. Freaking Georgette we make so many jokes its not even funny and just like all the memes and stuff but always like every time i hear the word ebola i think of Tumuaki because he was serving his mission in Sierra Leone and it was on the news before school one morning and i was walking past the hall and heard it so went in and re-winded the tv ahahahha an i was like thats where he is!! yup thats it.

Christmas!! Yes It's October but all i did this month was listen Christmas music and watch Christmas movies ahahaa. Baby It's Cold Outside is my faaaaaavourite Christmas song and The Holiday is my favourite Christmas movie and i was well happy enjoying those two hahahahah. And i downloaded my whole playlist from last year so i can listen to it whenever i want and i also watched Love Actually so not too ott but still two oths early ahahah i don't curr!

smoochies xx

Da show.

It was that time of the year again ole. Show time! We've been planing on going since before end of last term hahaha, we planned to all go in tie-dye and we had to go on Saturday coz Rai and Ton had an assessment on Friday. We woke up and got ready but just like chilling not really too fussed ahahahah, we took photos and then jumped in de caaar. We went to the "markets" and bought lots of drinks for the day ahead hahaha. I drank like half a blue V because i like the flavour and then instantly started getting a headache -_-

We got there and it was paaaaacked, we didn't want to line up for anything so we walked around. There was a freaking England food shop!! Hula Hoops and Mini Rolls saaaaan!!! Jade and Rai obviously weren't with us all day ahahahah we just saw them through parts of the day. Ton and Hori got shaved ice but i was feeling sick so i said id get some later but never got the chance. There were so many people wearing tie-dye!! Like had the same i sea as us ahahah and these tw girls gave me and Ton stink eye!! We found Olea, Sean, Kawhia and Antarge and gave them ALL a hug, in the four years I've known Antarge we've never hugged ahahahah that was his birthday present hahahha. We waited with them in line while they went on the ride, it was so cool seeing all of them, like it was just fun!

They went on another ride while we went and grabbed food for everyone ahahahha but i ate most of Oleas chips hahahahahaa. Then we made literally the worst decision of our lives. The Turbo Boost. The longest one i have ever been in and hopefully ever will be in. I saw a few of my mates from Lytton so gave them a big hug! Then we waited, and waited, and waited, and waited, for two straight hours! White girls pushing in and ooooohmygosh i almost lost my temper so bad, Ton kept saying waiting in line is a great way to see someones true self ahahahha. We played ninja ahahaha coz like it was just us four for two hours! There was a fight way up ahead of the line and coz me and Ton are tall we could see! But Olea and antarge couldn't so Olea made Ton pick her up and then THE weirdest most funniest thing of the day Antarge was like "Pick me up!!!" ahahahah so i legit picked him up so he could see, far out!! wonder what that woulda looked like to other people but it was so funny!! We inched our way to the front of the line fiiiiinally!! And then it was the most exciting, fun, scary and sickening ride ever!! My boobs were soooo freaking squished!! But it was so fun and so high and everyone seen us and it was just so cool i loved it. We went on the Scream Machine straight after coz there was no line and i just felt so sick and dizzy and miserable, just thinking about it is giving me a headache ahahahahhaha! So i didn't have much fun on that!

We all said our goodbyes and walked off in our little families ahahahah. We got like 16 pizzas i think and went back to Aunty Debs to eat them all. Mum and them had a few drinks and then the firs decided they wanted to drink so i sober drove us to the liquor store where mum bought so much it wast even funny. Then we came home and they were all just happy and excited but i was tired so i went and watched Siones Wedding in mums bed ahahahhahahaha!!

And that was it. It wonderfully overrated show day! But it was so much fun hanging out with Olea and them and it was a good day overall. Very happy ahahahha.

Smoochies xxx

Sorta serious.

I dunno if i should be writing this, like if it's too personal? I was reading other blogs on how to be a good blogger ahahaha and it said not to be too personal, I'm not too sure why, maybe for like your own safety or just because some people might not like that, but then again people are always not gonna like something!? unless your hurutea and love every single thing in the whole wide world forever ahaahahahahaha. But i feel like I'm quite an open person, theres not a lot i don't like to talk about? I think? And i feel like by not telling people i'm sort of keeping it a secret? I dunno maybe it's just me who thinks this way but yeah. Plus this is my blog where i document whats happening in my life and all my feelings, so i sort of just want to get it all out here so it's all organised? like my thoughts and feelings are sorted out into words ahahahha none of this is even making any sense! So anyways lets start story time!!

I'm gonna miss a few things out coz like that's private sorta thing that no-one wants to hear about, but basically i have a few sorta symptoms of what my mum had when she was younger, polycystic ovary syndrome, so we went to the doctor to like check it out and he said that i had to get a blood test or an ultrasound so mum said i'd get both hahahaha we went to town to get my blood tests and they came back positive, my mum came back from preschool with all this information about PCOS (hahahahha that makes me sound so smart and special) and like thinking about it now i should've made a bigger deal about it but i still had to get an ultrasound, coz the doctor said that was like 100% or whatever hahahha.

I went to Huruteas the day before for a movie day and i told her about it and we just talked about all the stuff me and my mum had talked about, but she got it, like i dunno i know no ones gonna judge me or anything for it but it's just nice that people are seeing it from my point of view aswell? Because basically one of the things with the syndrome is that you might have trouble having babies, it's like the most common cause of infertility. But when i found this out i wasn't too devastated about it? Like I wanted to adpt a baby anyways, but now maybe i'l just adopt them all??

When i told bly and olea about it they both said they'd give me one of their babies which truly warms my heart haha. And like its weird but when you think about stuff, or realise something, you see it everywhere or you just notice it more, coz like know its weird seeing pregnant people coz its like well i might never be able to that, which is weird. I'm fine with it now but my feelings might change as i grow older. But i may still be able to have babies, but i'm glad I'm not totally worried or devastated about it.

My poor mum feels so bad though, she told me how proud she if of me being so mature about this all haha, and she feels guilty because she has sort of passed it down to me, and because now "one of my kids just isn't normal and perfect" her exact words hahahahha but its alright coz now I'm just feeling bad for her feeling bad hahaha.

I've been reading a few things about adoption, not much, just searching it up on pinterest now and then and just sort of like easing into the adoptive moms club sort of thing which is totally mental really, starting to get information about something that won't happen for at least another 10 years but i guess i am always thinking about my future family, like always hahahha and my babies will be my babies no matter where they come from, yeah that's for now.

smoochies xx

New Edition to the Family.

Last week we finally got a new little baby puppy. She is so cute like too cute for words and its crazy how we all just love her so much and we've only had her a few days!! We're sort of stumbling our way through everything because we haven't had a pet in forever!! But just a lot of googling! She's just so cute and i love her so much its so weird ahahahah.

September Favourites.

Tee Shirt by Birdy, this song is on a The Fault in Our Stars and I've listened to it so much lately ahahahah I really love it a looooot! It's on my sleep playlist coz it's slow but like when I listen to slow songs I don't think they're depressing so I just listen to it whenever!

Long Way Down by Tom Odell this is from The Fault in Our Stars and it's so nice. It's just a nice song. It's slow and "depressing" but i love it!!

The Chainsmokers, the ones who did #selfie, they have a new song Kanye ahahahahah and it's so good and cool and catchy.

Only Love Can Hurt Like This by Paloma Faith, me ton and hori all love this song and jam out hard!! Ton said that it's so true because love is actually the thing that hurts the most in the world is love. I really like that song though just not the loooong as as as silence during it ahahahaha.

Meghan Trainor! Her new EP came straight from the music gods ole ahahahaha but its so good and has the coolest like messages! Some people are saying like that they're bad messages for young people and girls and boys but i love them gaaaah. And they're just so like upbeat and sort of sound like 50's or 60's music sort of style, like summery party songs yeah i just love it so much and we listen to it sau much!

My new phone case! I bought it in Wellington in a Chinese shop and it's for a s4 but mines an active, just like meeee nahahahha, but so it's too big for it but I still love it man! It's one of the wallet ones so I keep my liscence and card so I'm a proper grown up ahahaha but I just really love it, it's mint and navy and just so perfect.

The Giver!!! It's such a good movie!!! i highly recommend it! it was so cool, all us girls went and got chinese then watched it then got McDonalds ahahahahah but it's such a cool movie, it's just such a good plot and i really liked it! The soundtrack is aaaaaaamazing, i love the whole thing.

Rixton, ooooohmygosh. So everyone knows Me and My Brokenheart, and i know Jenny and lucas and have stalked their instagrams and know who their boyfriends are ahahahahah and Jenny's boyfriend is in the band!! So one of their songs are on The Giver and so then i started obsessing over them! They have THE best songs ever and i just love them. Appreciated, that song speaks to me on a spiritual level ahahahah but that song, i sing that to myself every day ahahahahha. Then i looooove Hotel Ceiling and Speakerphone, they're just freaking great!!

Andy Grammar, yah know the one who sung Keep Your Head Up!! He's got heaps of cool songs!! My absolutely looove I Choose You!! It's the coolest most sweetest song ever!

The Janoskians actually have some cool songs oi.

Smoochies xxx hahahahha I've got everyone hooked on Jenny and Lucas!! And\d so we always watch their video in class and Horiana always say smooches now and i respond with like the kisses ahahahahha i think its cute.

I think that's it, smoochies x

p.s yay 100th blogpost for the year!!

A very special day.

Today was little Princess Ayva's birthday party!! It was legit probably one of the biggest parties I've ever been to, and it was for a one year old! Yesterday we helped Bly set everything up, and today we were gonna get there early but we got there basically right on time, all dressed up in our tiaras and tutus! It was such a great day, I love Bly and baby so much and am so glad that i'm a part of their lives. It was so nice being around such loving families, like even if it's not my own family you still get that amazing family vibe and atmosphere and it was just great!!

We had a huge feed and the nicest puddings! Me, Jade and Bly did the helium from the balloons which is my favouritest thing ever! It didn't actually last ages just a couple of hours and then we packed everything up, we got to go on the bouncy castle which was actually the most fun ever, i wanna have one at my next birthday ahahahahha, but then all the little kids jumped on the sides and it was scary. 

We went back to Georgettes and took Bly with us so she would have to wait round for the boys, i left the plates on the top of the car and then we drove off ahahahah, we just ate more food, looked at photos, had lamb tails and watched movies until we all eventually got picked up. It was such a fun day flu of happy family princessness!

Recent emotions.

I’m really happy. 

I have like major mood swings, and Ton says I’m bi-polar. I have real high highs but then can have real low lows, make sense? Few weeks ago i was real low, quiet a lot of the day and it was all for no reason really, like i don’t have big problems and stuff but i just get sad and quiet, and have no desire to get happy? like that’s really depressing but that’s how i feel, i just want that time to be sad, i don’t know if that’s healthy? But when i’m happy i’m really happy, and like I’m usually in this happy state and i stay there most of my time i think but yeah. 

Well anyways back on track today and yesterday I've just been really happy. I was listening to good music yesterday and thats probably one of the times I'm most happiest is when I'm finding new music and obsessing over artists or bands! But i was in art class and Chater had just looked at the stuff i already have for my board and he said it was amazing and i honestly didn't expect that at all!! And it was mufti everyone just seemed happier and more comfortable in their own clothes yah know? So seeing all my friends and i just had a warm little heart and i was just soaking it all up, like i took the time to step back and appreciate my happiness!

The i was the only "adult" on the bus so i just played my music from my laptop and i was getting really like upset, and thats totally contradicted what I've just said but its hard to explain so just don't even listen to what i said up there ahahaha, but i was just realising that this is the last second to last day of my last term 3 ever hahahahah, but like i have one single term left of school left ever, eight weeks, thats two months and I'm gonna miss it more than anything man!! I don't wanna go but then i literally cannot wait to leave!!

Then today i finished off Ayvas present and got to wrap it which i love love love!! I got to hang out with my babies at preschool, i was finishing my work and they were all just really loving me today!! Said all my goodbyes to everyone but it wasn't really a big dramatic thing, then walked to Georgettes house, the smell of lamb tails was in the air ole, but Jess drove past and waved and then it just hit me again like a burst of happiness and i was just like "I love Te Karaka" ahahahah because i do!! I grew up here and now I'm back and i just love everything about it, yeah its hansim and hori and needs a major revamp but i love the people, and just how literally every single person is related i love that.

We waited at Hori's house until mum came to pick us up and then we went to help Bly set up for Ayva's birthday!! It was obviously so fun because it was Bly, and lucky we did go coz everyone else was so late like just arriving when we were leaving hahaha but i love those girls and i made her open the present then and she loved it! It was so much fun and i got to practice my event management skills ahahahah.

I think i'm getting sick, sore throat and very runny nose ahahahahha but like i just don't care because I'm in such a good state of mind ole. But one last thing, Dione was drinking with her aunty and so was messaging me how much she loves me and stuff ahahahah which is always nice!!

I just had the best days yesterday and today and i just love my life and just yeah. Wanted to document the happiness :)