Mission Impossible/R.I.P Ashllen/Your Mum.

Okay so today was the best day. I'm just gonna go journal styles on it and write out everything that happened today!

 So last night I was talking to asher, obviously, and we were just preparing everything and like sortig ut all the details like what time he should get there and like he said he was gonna get her flowers and chocolate ehehehehheeh Ton was with me and we were being so ugly! He reckons go show us a photo of your gym ahahahahha and then obviously said it was hansim and teets. Me and Ton were telling him all the stuff he had to buy for us ahahahaha and he actually did!! I was so excited, but then still like thinking he could just pull out at any moment ole ahahahah.

This morning got all ready and went on the bus to school and I was honestly just so excited, like that was always gonna be the hardest part of this whole thing was not showing my excitement and keeping everything a secret. So I got to school and thankfully Hurutea was there, I asked her twice yesterday if she was coming ahahahah but I messaged asher and was like "the eagle has landed. over and out" and he was like you are the hansimest person I know hahahahahha.

So today i had to get everything ready and set up and there was so much more to do than i had expected!! This morning i went and saw the office ladys and told them all about it and asked if anyone was using the gym, then because there was soccer practice at lunch i had to go see the two coaches and ask if they could postpone it for like fiteen minutes, i had to ask Jordy and Teina to not go in there at lunch, coz they usually go and play basketball hahahah, and then the cleaner was in there at lunch so i asked if she could just stay in the little room she was in, I had to help georgette organize a "netball meeting" which meant telling more people which was the scary part like, that hurutea would find out, i found out where asher could get the flower from coz he couldn't just do that by himself could he nahahahahahha and i was just running around all day having the most fun i think i ever may have had ahahahahahhaah.

Oh so like i was suppose to keep in contact with my cuz all day so that he wouldn't chicken out and so he wouldn't be late! But then i ran out of data so i texted my bro and asked him for ashers number and then he didn't replied so he gave me another number, still no reply so i got his facebook number and then he finally replied to the first message hahahhaha and i was just freaking out that he wouldn't come if like i didn't i dunno talk to him.

I had independent 2nd so i was over in the art room and when it was like 12 me Ton and Hori were looking out the window waiting for him hahahhaha. We were so excited!! He got there but he parked on the other side of the road and we were out the front, so he called me and i told him to come like into school and he was still on his phone and driving!!! little idiot!! But i was so happy and so ugly and skipped over to him and gave him the fattest hug ever ahahahahhaha! I was just so excited! Ton and hori were being soooo ugly hiding behind the pillar thingys hahahahah and i was just helping  grab all the stuff from the car and the ball and the flowers and just ohmygosh i was so excited!!

So we got him all set up and he was just standing there while we were all running around hahahahah Ton set up the camera and it was just so exciting! I asked him if he was nervous and he said nah ahahahahaahha. Then all the netball girls came in and i asked Ken if colesh had gone to get teah and she said she didn't know where she was so i raaaan to go get her and Kirsteen said she already left so i raaaan back and it was all over. I literally wanted to stop and cry then and there ahahahahahah i was so happy but so so so sad i missed it!! Hurutea was so happy! I had kept it a secret for two weeks and set it all up but then i missed it! But hurutea said yes and it was just so great and so perfect! She ran out to find her dad an so all us girls were just talking to him and i was just being dramatic and annoying as usual making everything about me ahahahahahhahaha!

The video is so so so crut because asher walked over to teah when she tripped ahahahahhahahaha! But you can hear it and you get the general idea of all the cuteness! It was all so perfect and I'm so proud of my cuz, like so proud!! And i guess some of the best things in life aren't meant to be seen ole.

So then he like hung out and we gave him a tour, he was like oh you can show me your mischief boy! hahahahahahah but he was like just kicking back in our class with tonio hahahhaa then he messaged me and was like see your school is slack, no work being done! and i was like taaah it was lunchtime idiot and he reckons at but i bet they still do that in class time ahahhahahaahah! I was waiting for him to leave so i could actually talk to hurutea! We went out and said goodbye and i felt like a third wheel ahhaahahahhahahahahaa and hurutea was cracking up at his car and yeah he left. Me and hurutea went into the cooking room, she put her flowers in a vase and was carrying her ball around everywhere. She was so happy and that just made me so happy knowing that i was apart of making her feel that way ole ahahhhahahaha but like not tryna be cheesy or make myself seem nice, but honestly making people happy or even just smile is one of my favorite things ever.

Last period i got absolutely no work done because i was with Hurutea just being happy and excited! She called aunty max and olea and she's just had to tell the story so many times hahahahha and it's weird coz like she tells the story from her point of view and like just knows the stuff she knows and saw, so me being the hella annoying attention seeker that i am, had to have my say about how much i did and make everything about me but i was so freaking proud of myself and didn't even get a proper thankyou from asher and just thought i deserved praise which is so douche baggy but faaar! Later on though obviously huruteas mum was so happy and she gave me a thankyou and the moose messaged me saying "so i heard youre the mastermind behind ash-holes cute little proposal" and it made my whole day! ahahahahhahaah like im the biggest dick ever! My bestfriend just gets asked to the ball and i NEED all the attention! But far i love that he said that to me man it just made my day!

So then after school hurutea had netball training so i tidied up the whole class and i called sean to tell him all about it. We went up to WTA and it was obviously fun as coz it's always fun with dem Lloyds and Tahuri's. Hurutea put the video up on Facebook with a big as story and said that i got twenty point, teash my cuz only got ten points nahahahahhaa. Everyone had a watch of the super duper bad video and when they went "off camera" teahs mum was like DID YOUS HAVE A KISS!! faaaaar it was funny!!! then keenan was like if she gets to kiss him i get to punch him faaaar it was so funny! In the lesson Shane was like moving Candy around and he thought it was craaaack up as ahahahah and he was keeping e nice and warm! Olea was being so hensim looking at the fire so we were just doing that the whole night hahahhahaha! They're nan was like "hurutea are you gonna wear a long dress? Sloanes wedding dress is in the room" faaaaar it was funny!! And it was just the best most perfect way to end the best day ever! 

I love those two hansims and they're the cutest friends ever and I'm just so happy that i literally go to be there from start to finish in this little chapter of their story. Okay that's enough,I'm gonna get in trouble hahahahahhahaa! Bye uglies.

Promposals.

So this is all kinda mixed up but everyone knows and everyone said yess so I can post this now ahahahahah. So I wrote this on the 12th of june which was the best day ever, like the happiest day of my whole entire life ever! I'm gonna write a post of what actually all went down for tomorrow and then i'm just posting this on sunday, but from Friday, but it was actually two weeks ago and I kept the secrets for that long and it was just great!! So here, this is what I wrote on thursdy, but with added bits I dunno, I just wanna remember this day forever!

This is so ugly, literally like everything else in my life, but today has been my absolute favourite day of this whole year, yup even better than the day at Nuhaka. 

This isn't reeeeeally my story to tell but neemine I feel like I played a very important role in these story's. The lead character of "wingman" So without further a dooo here's how two little hansim boys made me the happiest I think I may have ever been!

So everyone, and I literally mean everyone, knows who Peachy and Usher are, they all wrongly believe that they're my boys. But they're not, they're ma bro and ma cuz! They were the ones who took Olea and Teah to the Nuhaka ball last year all the way back in September! Faaar! So we've all become pretty dang close with these boys over the past few months. But today I dunno I feel like we leveled up our friendship ahahahaha but like I feel closer to them because they've come to me for advice (which I'm not the best at) ideas, help, courage ahahhaha, just overall wingmanness! It's a really weird place to be actually because I'm in the middle of ma bro and cuz and my two bestfriends, it's all super sneaky and secretive, like reeeeally bad in the absolute best possible way. Coz I'm keeping secrets and sorta going behind either the girls or the boys backs. That's making it sound so dramatic but it's just how I feel. 

So anyways on with the story. This is legitametly just literally gonna be our messages in a huge paragraph form. Faaar this whole thing started this morning when I told asher that I changed the breakup bribe (what he had to to if he didn't wanna be my friend anymore) to $95 of candy and one pepperoni pizza hahahhahaa. Just a nice good morning message for him. I was in art and Ken was smashing out her sculpture while I was on my phone the whole morning. But so then I asked him if he was gonna ask hurutea to the ball. And he said "umm I don't know probably though see what happens" which made my little romantic heart so happy ahahha. Then he was like are you gonna go and there is no way I am going to go to that ball, and do you know how long it's took for olea and teah to convince me to go to the Nuk ball ahahahah. If the girls say yes I have my night all set up, movies and munchies with Cyene and Shane! So then asher asked what's a funny way to ask a girl to the ball and at first I was like "nah I'm not taking part in this figure it out yourself coz I don't wanna get in trouble" ahahaha then he called me a pussy and said to help him hahahah and then I remembered that teah told me him and her were cracking up at me coz I liked this basketball prom thing, and basketball is already like the biggest joke between us all because I straight up lied to him that I played, and then on top of that hurutea went and watched him play on Monday, so I said "do that basketball one!" So he came up with the thing of getting a basketball and writing on it "will you go to the basket-BALL with me?" And I honestly couldn't handle it. I sent him eight messages that contained the word "cute" at least nine times and I was so happy and excited and hopeful that hurutea would like it!! Then he got annoyed coz I was saying how cute he was and boys always get defensive about their manlyness. He told me he was gonna buy the basketball after school. Then I said that they were gonna be like Troy and Gabriella off of HSM and he said he's been called that since he was 12 hahahahaha, and that part of the story gets even better later. He told me not to tell anyone but I had already told Ken and Colesh, then obviously I told Ton but that's all all all!! I just kept telling him how cute he was and he was getting annoyed ahahhahaha. Then we were just talking about normal stuff until after school and he bought the ball!! Then said how she left the receipt in his bucket he was gonna throw her the ball and then just give her the receipt ahahahhaha. I was just being annoying and girly saying how excited I am. 

 

So then I asked him if I could tell olea coz I was just too excited for anything and knew that I needed to ask what she would say if Sean asked her. Stupidly sneaky and secretive. But I told her all in caps and we were just being so excited all together and I was so happy like far I can't even I was so happy to be sharing my excitement with someone who was just as excited as me!!

I'm gonna put this part in even though it's not relevant, but in case the loser ever reads this. The little mischief he is, voice messaged me while he was driving, and I didn't know whether to just give him the seen or quickly reply so I quickly replied and just said "no dork don't drive and message reply to me when you get home" BUT THEN the idiot replied and was cheeky as "ellen I'm driving ooooh" so I gave him the seen then once he was home he was like "ahahaha did you panic?" And I went ooooff at him! You so should never ever text, or Facebook someone while you're driving! He was like oh you're a pussy you're teets NAAAAU I'm responsible and I'm not gonna be the cause of someone crashing and potentially seriously hurting themselves or others. And he was like nah I do lots of stuff while I drive, I talk and listen to music and sing and eat. Yeah but those things aren't illegal!! Far I was just going off at him, saying how dumb he was for thinking he was right and like how mad I was at him ahahahah. But I hope that boy remembers that growling I gave him. 

Oh and then I was still just voice messaging him about my day. Arguing about stupid stuff, it's so funny listening back to the messages that just happened a few hours ago ahahahah but we are always arguing and honestly never ever agree on anything. I think the only thing we agree on is that we both like Harry Potter and Chester See. Ahahahah we just go at eachother hahahha. Eeeeehhehehe then he sent me a photo of the ball farout I was honestly so excited! Then he was doing what he's known to do best, gossip. Ngaw but then he said like how asking is the hardest part and Sean said that too, that like he was nervous and I really feel for the guys coz I could never be a guy and have to do all that stuff! And I think some girls do take it for granted, all the courage, nerves like all the stress and worry and effort boys actually go to even if it may not seem like much. Fwaaaayyy. A smile has literally not left my face the whole day, and then I started to cry and just sorta didn't stop. I don't think I've ever cried of happiness but I was just so happy and I knew how happy teah was gonna be and honestly I'm so happy and I have no one to talk to only blimmen asher and Sean who don't understand girl emotions the way girls do hahahah so I was just crying and voice messaging asher while he was just being an idiot! But then he made me mad, as usual, ahahah so I stopped crying. I'm so annoying, like far the way I talk to him is so mean and always such an angry tone ahahahha! Then we were talking about how what would happen if he just asked her on Facebook again ahahhahaha and I told him that Sean told me that teah told him, oosh, that if he did ask her on Facebook that she would block him ahahahhaahhahahahaha, yeeeah hurutea! Then he was like nah I'm gonna be an idiot and do it on the day I'm actually gonna ask her and I thought that was sooo crackup but knew it was soo wrong ahahahha. Then we were talking about my boy and his handwriting. 

So then I started crying again thinking about the actual ball night and when the girls are getting ready, at Huruteas house, I already planned it, and then the boys show up all dressed up and then the girls come out of the room and it's just like the movies and it's literally gonna be the best thing I could ever imagine ever and I was so happy ahahahhaha. THEN he told me about how he asked his brother for the car and he's gonna fix it up in the holidays and I went crazy happy. He's literally gonna be like Troy in the last High School Musical and he's fixing up the car and it's his last year and their all going to prom and I was just bawling my eyes out like a pathetic baby!! But it's just so cute, it's literally HSM3 and I can't handle it. It's gonna be the night of nights!! And that was the end of that story. 

Okay so then the next story will hopefully have a happy ending!! So this is about my bro Sean. After asher told me he was gonna ask teah I asked Sean if he was gonna ask olea, Oosh, coz he said he was gonna a little while ago. And he just said he didn't know yet, like should it be cheesy or what, but he knew he had to do it in person this time. He said I was gonna be his wingman hahaha. And so we were just talking about how like me and teah are always with her so he wouldn't be able to like ask her hahahah like "girls always travel in packs" but I was just so excited and like couldn't even handle all the cuteness of this morning. 

Back tracking a bit. So later on in the day I finally got permission to tell olea about asher ahahahaha. It was so exciting to talk about it with someone who was as excited as me!! And we were just like all caps lock so excited! But then I super casually asked olea what she'd say if Sean asked her and she just said "he asked you to give me the lollies I don't think he will" and that made me kinda sad but then it still wasn't a freaking yes or no answer. But I told him and it honestly just feels so dang sneaky and wrong but it's so exciting and cute! He was so cute coz he was like "okay well I'll ask her, that means I got a lot of stuff to do" maaaan the little cutie!! Then he said I was top wingman seeeig \m/ Ahahahaha it made me so happy that the boys asked me to help but then it was so hard coz it's like keeping secrets or whatever but they're good secrets so it's alright, that's what I'm telling myself ahahahaha. 

(so i'm not gonna write a whole post about how their promposal went coz I don't know coz no-one will tell me ahahahhaa, but I was up the coast when all the planning went down, and Ton helped Sean set it all up and stuff so she was the best wingman ever im so proud of her hahahaha, just thought id give her the recognition she deserves coz I know how it feels ahahahahahaa. But anyways this story did have a happy ending and olea said yes and that's all I know hahahahah)

So that was my day of emotions. I honestly did not stop smiling, and then did not stop crying. I wrote this on the day but didn't post it coz then the girls would know obviously. But here it is now because they know!

June Favourites.

White nail polish- looks saaaau classy! And I've literally just had white on my nails all month. I like it so much man!! I've had like maybe four bottles of just plain "milk white" nail polish hahaha in my life though coz i just use it everytime i do my nails as a base colour. But yeah i just really liked it a lot.

El Da Rado- we watched this on mine and Oleas "disney movie night" hahahaha and I really liked it! Like it was funny and it was cool hahaha. Then I watched it again when I couldn't go to sleep.

TFiOS- well obviously. The movie was so good. Like as perfect as the book, almost exactly the same, same lines and far it was just so perfect. I didn't cry though which made me feel like the most heartless starts with b and rhymes with witch hahahah but then zoe said she didn't cry either so it made me feel less worse? It's just super good and i wanna watch it again!

22 jump street- this was literally the funniest movie ive seen in ages. I laughed the whole way through and then randomly the next day when i remembered parts of it. Some hansim boy was there and messaged me the next night just telling me how hansim my laugh is ahahahahaha.

Emeli Sande- she's is honestly so cool man! Clown, Suitcase, Maybe, River, Hope, and he cover of Imagine. I love her, she's just so cool and I really like her songs. Most of them are all on my sleep playlist ahahahaha.

Jesse McCartney- My homebooy Jesse!! Ahhahahahah literally the ugliest thing ever. But coz i got spotify i got some of his new music and i really like In my Veins, Makeup and Invincible. Makeup is such a funny song and it just always makes me laugh hahaha. They all sound like songs that should've come out in 2005 or something i dunno hahahaha

X- Obviously. i love it and it's perfect. i just love it and Thinking Out Loud is my favouritest song in all of life, and i'm not just saying taht and being over dramatic. I started trying to learn it on the piano too hahahahaha.

Really Dont Care- By Demi Lovato, the song is cool but the video is so so so cool! It made me so happy when i watched it with Shaynie and it's so cute. All her fans are like in front of the camera singing the lyrics and just think its all casaul and cool and then Demi comes in and its so cool and they're so happy its just cool. And her little sister is in it too which is cute hahahah.

Chocolate milk- Little kid aaaas but i love chocolate milk and have drunk so much of it. Up and Go's and chocolate soy milk coz im #hashtaglivingthehealthylife hahahahahaha but it's nice and i just lyke it.

SuperFruit- Oleas favourite youtubers and I love them so much! They're so sassy and cool and so funny! They're bestfriends, and I just love best friends ahahah like I just love seeing people's friendship, is that weird? They're so stylish and they can sing!! Far I just love them!!

JulienSmith- another youtuber but omg!! Olea and teah invited me to youth then teah didn't come to school so I went to Oleas and she was at work ahahahah so I was just hanging with the kiddies and boys! Antarge showed me Julien Smith and we were craaaacking up the whole entire time!! 

Kendall and Kylie photos- I have no idea why we started doing this but me and Ton just did it the other day. When we took a photo i was just like lets pose like Kendall and Kylie, dead eyes, no emotions, lips ahahahahaha and then i just did it with everyone else and everyone just clicked when i said Kendall and Kylie pose. So here they are.

New Years check-up.

Just like last year imm re-evaluate or whatever, my New Years resolutions, sau yeah.

Blog more: I been doin' 10 posts every month sau thats a yes! I literally still haven't finished my blog about John Mayer and still have freaking 21 other drafts. But achieving dat goal geol.

Choose happiness: I have been super trying to do this! Like i really am smiling more in times when I'm just flat faced and blank, no emotion hahahha but like i'll realise and then i'll just force myself to smile and it legit works! like i feel better and happier, even if i wasnt like upset or anything ahahhahaha. I still get worried, like a lot but i dunno it feels like the only right thing to do at the time i dunno. I needa e-mail my nana more though. And i still wanna get it tattooed hahahaha

Work hard: I have been actually alright at my work. A dumb little boy who doesnt know the difference between your and you're has more level 3 credits than me but I'm doing good. I'm not allowed to sit in the independent room so i have to sit in the little cage all by myself. But i get ma work done. Just still gotta keep working hard getting credits and all that. Hurry up and finish all my corrospondence's.

Get organized: I have actually managed to keep my room tidy. I make my bed enough times a week hahahaha. It still gets messy and un-organized but i just tidy it every week. It is so nice to just be clean and organized all the time. We're moving next month and me and ton are gonna share a room which will be pretty hard to keep clean, coz she saaau messy.

Be nice: I'm still hella sassy and sarcastic but I'm doing more nice things for people, actions speak louder than words or whatever. Giving people cute little presents randomly and just yeah making people feel better or at least just making em smile :D I'm still a dick though so maybe needa not be a dick because there are nice people so they can be my inspiration ahahahaha. Uh yeah.

Have confidence and say yes: I actually have done this a lot. And it's super good coz i've had lots of fun! Sometimes i will have said yes then been like oh i dunno maybe i dont wanna but them im just like nah i gotta say yes and do it and it's been reeeeal good. I sorta feel like on Yes Man ahahahaha but it's super cool and fun. I have said no though, just to one dance coz i dont like dancin' but i thiiink that might just me it.

Yeap das it.

Best Friends Forever.

My friendships are honestly probably the most important thing in my life, definitely top 3. I love my friends and would honestly do anything for any of them. I know everyones like "my best friend is the best best friend in the world, hands down no competition" and all that hansim stuff but mine honestly are. The people who I've chosen to surround myself with are honestly the best people i know, everyones so nice and so happy, so funny, like all my friends can make me laugh which is the best thing, especially like on those days when I'm just being hansim and dramatic ahahahah or just yah know when you're down and you can literally just message one of your mates demanding that he make you smile and he goes above and beyond ole ahhahaahaha. 

My friends give me so much confidence like faaarout all the things that I've done since I've been friends with Olea and Teah, that i would never ever do before. And I know that I've chosen good ones that I love. But, and this is the ugliest part of this whole thing, I've had a lot of bestfriends in my life, like I think maybe 12, that's not too many but it is quite a lot, and literally eight of them I never ever talk to anymore. Like we've faded and drifted apart or been brutally cut out of their lives ahahahahahhaha, but like that is just a part of life? Friends come and go sorta thing? So I don't really think long term sorta thing for the future of my friendships? I mean me Olea and Teah have made all these plans and like I can fully see us being bestfriends till when we grow up, and i love them so much and forever will love them but then I do sometimes worry that like yah know, when I go to England we'll drift or whatever, and I don't like that I think this way but I'm just gonna put it down to being a realist? Even though I am extremely optimistic and hopeful most of the time it's just those few little thoughts that come once every so often ahahahahaha. 

But so me and Hurutea were talking about how she thinks we'll be friends with the Nuk boys until we're older and that's what really made me realize that I do this. I only think short term and think that my friendships will end. I dunno, but it'd be super cool to be their friends til we're older and like we make all these plans and that, but it's just my mindset ahahaha like I build up walls or whatever ahahahaha. It's got nothing to do with them and who they are, "it's not you it's me" sorta thing ahahahaha but like I just see all friendships failing ahahahahah like that's so depressing and sad and I don't believe that in my heart I just think it in my head. Yeah that makes sense right? Like I want to love these people forever and like can feel that we'll stick together but then think that we won't? I dunno?

Then all my highschool friends who I'm not like best best friends with and are super close with but I love them so much, like everyone in my class man! And I know that in movies and tv everyone never sees eachother after highschool so that's sort of how I feel? But actually realistically, how many people who go to my school will leave Te Karaka? That sorta sounds harsh but I don't think that most them even want to. I dunno. But I know that I will most probably move back here and so I will still see most of my highschool friends all the time? It's weird because my mum always says "oh I went to highschool with her" or "he's was in my class at Waikohu" and they don't act like they were in the same class, like don't even acknowledge eachother I dunno? And there might be some people who I'd see in the future and won't have a full on catchup, or like go round to their house for dinner hahaha but I can picture myself doing that with most of em. I honestly imagined it all, like after I first move back from England and I'm at the supermarket (coz that's where mum always sees everyone she hasn't seen in ages) and then I'll get to say hi and be happy and faaaar I'm ugly for imagining it but I just do!

So basically surround yourself with idiots who you love and work on your relationships, like that's what I dont do I think I just give up on relationships? Like oh if they don't wanna be in my life then I won't try keep them? And that's sorta good like "let go or be dragged" But then yeah I dunno. That was the weirdest most pointless post ever but anyways choose people who you love and just love them to your fullest, and in the words of the most perfect fictional charecter ever created "I like my choices"

We're moving.

 YAAASS I haven't even blogged about this yet!! So like last month I made a post about all the houses I've lived in and i was tryna I dunno like mentally prepare myself coz we were talking about buying this new house, like we didn't know if we were gonna get it or not. BUUUT we got it!! So we're moving on the 1st of August and I honestly couldn't be more excited. 

Me and ton are gonna be sharing a room together which will be interesting. We're getting heaps of pets by the sounds of it hahaha. Mums already started packing everything up hard out. I'm just excited! We're not gonna be going on the town bus anymore though, and we're gonna live further from town which is sucky, but that's like the only bad thing I can think of hahaha. I'm so happy and excited to be decorating our new room coz I love doing all that stuff and we're moving back into like farmlands hahahah so we'll be little country bumpkins again! I'm so excited coz we have the river right there and were gonna make a full on tree swing like on The Notebook, then we're gonna make a fire pit and it's just gonna be so great! I've already made plans for everyone to come over and have super fun summer days!

I'm so happy that I changed my mindset and the way I felt about moving all because one of my friends said "moving is just like a whole new adventure" and it's weird how he wouldn't even realize how much that one sentence like changed me ole. Ahahahahah so this is also sorta like, be careful what you say to people because you have no idea how much it could affect them. I said thank you to him because like moving was such a big deal to me when it so didn't need to be, and I just hated it so much even though I'm planning to move to the other side of the planet in just a few months, great decision Els. So yep thinking process has changed, positive outlook and just excitement for the unknown has replaced fear of change ahahahah. That's all.

Multiply.

Okay so yesterday was actually a pretty crut day for me BUT I had the most best day because Ed Sheerans new album came out in NZ. I was awake til like 1am and then remembered people talking about how it was gonna be realsed on the 20th so I was like oh I'll go see if it's there and it freeaking was!! I was so happy and excited and quickly listened to it before I went to bed. But then I knew I was in the art room all day at school so I took my ipad and my speaker, and literally not even figuratively listened to the album in repeat all day long. I think I listened to it maybe six or seven times? It is so beautiful and perfect and it's so hard with new music coz you love it but you don't know the words to sing it and like geeet right into it! Faaar, I'm just gonna listen to again right now and write about it coz das how I express my emotions best hahahaha.

One-  the first time I heard this song was when I was at Huruteas after our photoshoot and I lost my iPod Ahahahaha. She was still asleep and Olea sent me the link. It's so nice and calming and just peaceful. "All my friends have gone to find to another place to let their hearts collide" that's is the sweetest and nicest way of putting "falling in love" but it's ed and he's obviously a lyrical genius. I love the video to this too, simple and nice.

I'm a mess- I like songs that just straight away start, like no intro or whatever. I like this one, and I'd really wanna see him perform it live, there's like heaps of sorta differentness, like sorta it's not boring it sorta chops and changes? I dunno hahahaha. My favourite part is just when he's saying home home home ahahahha.  I don't get the line "put your faith in my stomach" but I rarely even understand anything really hahahha, I'll ask Ton. 

Sing- obviously this song is perfect. I love it so much and it's so different and cool. Georgette said someone played it and it reminded her of me which made me so happy ahahahhaa. I know aaallmost all the words to the real fast part ahahaha and I love all those lyrics too. I like Pharell, he seems like a cool guy hahahha. The video was, um different, but I still just love it coz Ed isn't all about having the most attention all the time, he's kinda low-key, especially compared to other celebrities, so I like that he wasn't the main thing in the video, a little puppet of himself was.

Don't- I loove this one. I just really like it hahahah. I read somewhere that Ed took out all the swear words from the album coz a cab driver or something said his daughter loved him and he asked him not to hahahha. I don't know who this song is about but I really really like it. 

Nina- okay oh my gosh the first little beat or note or whatever of this song reminds me so so so much of Stereo Hearts! Like when it comes on I'm like Myyy hearts a stereo ahahha but then the actual song starts. Oh Nina. I like this song, and just imagine little teenage ed when he had a girlfriend! "People grow and fall apart" I like that coz ain't dat da truth ahahahahhaah. I like it.

 Photograph- awww this is the sweetest song and I love it so much. Everyone's been talking about this one, like I've just been on the Ed Sheeran or Multiply hashtag for the past two days hahaha.  "We made these memories for ourselves" I like this song coz it's like slow but it's still upbeat I dunno I just like it.

Bloodstream- this isn't my favourite one, but I like the start and all throughout with all the mmmhhm mhhm mmm's. "Colour chrimson in my eyes" I like that line hahaha. It's different, I still like it coz I mean c'mon it's an ed sheeran song. It sort of reminds me of old ed, and his song London Bridge, not too sure why.

Tenerife Sea- I caaaant beeelieeeve it!! Ahahahah me olea and teah were all obsessing over this song last year when he performed it live. Everyone thinks it's about Taylor Swift. Ed is so nice. It's weird hearing it as a studio version, but it's still the same coz ed is that good, yah know how some singers sound suuuuper different live. But the only thing that's missing is the ssuuuuuper high part in "luuurve me in, darling" that he does, I wanted that to be in the song hahaha. "All that you are is all that I'll ever need" 

Runaway- I always straight away think of Bruno Mars's song runaway but it's nothing like that hahahaha. He talks about his dad lots in this album. I like the little rap rhymy part, but I don't know the words hahahahah.  

The Man- this is another one that everyone likes and is talking about. It seems like another old ed song too. "I don't love you baby, I don't need you baby" lots more words to learn hahaha. I like how he says Jesus in it, it doesn't sound like him, like it sounds like he put an accent on? Blurred swear words :D like it just makes me so happy that he did that hahhaha.

Thinking Out Loud- these next four I literally cannot even. This song is my favourite song I think maybe of my whole life. I'm like 95% sure it will be my wedding song. I turn it up to full volume and just I can't even. I love this song with everything I am. I posted it last night too. It is the greatest love song of our time ahahaha and I think everyone has to hear it and just realize how perfect ed is and his perception of love. Like his wife is gonna be literally the luckiest girl in this whole world. I love this song and will forever love it. It's my favourite on the whole album. This song is life. Gaaah it makes me wanna cry with happiness and I've only ever done that once in my life! Words honestly can't even express how much I love it and I wanna just listen to it on replay but then I'll start to get annoyed which is annoying hahahaha.

Afire Love- this song is about eds grandad who past away of Alzheimer's, and my nan past away of Alzheimer's too but Ed was six and actually knew his grandad but I wasn't even thought of when my nan past away, so I can sort of relate to this song but then I don't. But the chorus is what eds nan would say that his grandad said and so it's the sweetest thing ever. "Darling hold me in your arms the way you did last night, and they lie inside for a little while he wrote, I could look into your eyes until the sun comes up, and we're wrapped in light, in life, in love Put your open lips on mine and slowly let them shut, For they're designed to be together oh, with your body next to mine our hearts will beat as one" I just love this song.

Take It Back- loooove this song, it's fast again and has lots of words but then the freaking chorus. Mhhmmmm mmmmm mmm hahahaha I just love it so much and I've just been singing that part for forever. I love this song and I heard it for the first time when he came here and I watched the live stream and I just remember the lyrics "coz I'm a singer that you never want to see shirtless, and I accept the fact that someone's go to win worst dressed" and like I didn't remember the name of the song but I know that the songs was like all random lyrics he thought of and then chucked into his iPhone notes and then made into a song hahahaha and I just really like those lyrics coz ed is just so cool and straight up.

Shirtsleeve- how is ed even a real human like he is so perfect. "I'll wipe my shirtsleeve under your eye" like it's so simple but that's the sweetest thing ever. And I just love this song.

Even My Dad Does Sometimes-  I really like this song and it's actually really short but all the lyrics are real good. I love ed. "It's alright to cry, even my dad does sometimes, so don't wipe your eyes, tears can remind you're alive. It's alright to die, if that's the only thing you haven't tried, but just for tonight, hold on.  So live life like you're giving up, cause you act like you are, go ahead and just live it up, go on and tear me apart.  It's alright to shake, even my hand does sometimes" 

I See Fire- I watched the live stream, and the radio interview, and then he was on 20/20 and in each of those he said how much he loved New Zealand and would like to live here which is like the coolest thing ever ahahaha but I See Fire was his first number one single which is pretty cool coz like it was in the hobbit and all that. I really like this song and faar it's pretty old! The one time I reeeeally remember listening to this song is when we were coming back from Rere and we were blaaasting it! I think that mighta been the day we saw the Nuk boys and I got my huge bruise. 

I love this whole album so much and I love ed far he's just the best ever. I told my family that this will probably be the only thing we're gonna listen to for the next couple of weeks hahahaha. And yeeeh.

Thinking out loud.

When your legs don't work like they used to before

And I can't sweep you off of your feet

Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love

Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks

Darlin' I will

Be lovin' you, till we're seventy

Baby my heart

Could still fall as hard, at twenty three

I'm thinkin' bout how

People fall in love in mysterious ways

Maybe it's all part of a plan

Me I fall in love with you every single day

I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now

Take me into your lovin' arms

Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars

Place your head on my beating heart

I'm thinking out loud

Maybe we found love right where we are

When my hairs all but gone and my memory fades

And the crowds dont remember my name

When my hands don't play the strings the same way 

I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul

Can never grow old, it's evergreen

Baby your smile's forever in my mind in memory

I'm thinkin' bout how

People fall in love in mysterious ways

Maybe just a touch of a hand

I'll continue making the same mistakes

Hoping that you'll understand

That baby now 

Take me into your loving arms

Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars

Place your head on my beating heart

I'm thinking out loud

Maybe we found love right where we are 

Baby now

Take me into your loving arms

Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars 

Place your head on my beating heart

I'm thinking out loud

Maybe we found love right where we are

We found love right where we are

And we found love right where we are

It's June.

It's literally almost half way through 2014. What even is that. It was literally december two hours ago. I will still forever love when Olea told me about how like each year is like another year of your whole life so its broken into smaller fractions so it goes faster, thats a really crap job of explaining something super cool. 

The other day my mum and Hurutea decided for me that i will leave before christmas. Whenever anyone asked me when i was leaving my answer would simply be "either before or after Christmas" But now we're not going to Australia or Christmas as a family so she said I'm leaving before. I'm super excited to spend christmas there because it's honestly the best ever, it's so festive and like jolly ahahahaha but it's just the best and I'm so excited to be going!

BUT. There's always a but. That means I only have 6 months left here. 6 month to do everything that needs to be done, spend as much time as possible with my friends and family, move house, de-clutter my life, say all my goodbyes to everyone, make some kick-ass memories and faaar just enjoy my time here being around all the people I love the most. And I've literally been doing just that! Last month i stayed at Teahs house three out of the four weekends of the month. The I've been at oles the past two weekends! Like i just wanna hangout and be together.

I wanna go on heaps of adventures, I won't even be here for the summer so they just have to be spring adventures. I have lots of little plans of things that i wanna do before I leave but mainly just Olea and Teah ahahahahha. I know my mum is gonna miss me so much coz she literally tells me everyday. And we got that new house so me and Ton will be sharing a room for four months so that'll be interesting! But we get to bond and all that!

I'm so excited to be starting like a new chapter in my life but obviously I'm nervous coz I'm literally moving out when I'm 17 and like I'm gonna miss everyone and am gonna miss out on fun things everyone does here but I'm gonna have so fun in England so yeh. Akay. I thank thats all that i have to say. Farewell.